All of the memories flow through my head, one by one. The pain of the past was too hard to bare. I fell in love and then completely lost them. But like most people I know say,

The truth is everyone is going to hurt you. You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.

And I did, I'm suffering because of him and its worth it. He meant everything to me and I lost him four years ago. My life has been a living hell ever since. I'm not as happy as I used to be. My friends and family say that I have turned cold towards everybody since it happened.

It pains me that he couldn't live his dream and destroy all vampires ever existed. It pains me that he had to leave so soon. It pains me that I never got to tell him how I feel.

People try to help. They want me to help change my sudden depression. So, when people ask me what the worst feeling I have ever felt was, so that they could fix it, my response was,

The worst feeling in the world is knowing you did the best you could and it still wasn't good enough.

Especially, with what is soon to happen.