"I can never turn my back on you, if i need to choose between you and anything else in this world, i will always choose you. Don't ask for the reason, because I also don't know the reason behind this insanity."

-Dunk-

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[Trigger warning, heavy contents of abduction, torture, killing]

[Author's Pov]

"How is his condition?" Dao asked wearily.

"He isn't awake from his sleep, last night he got convulsions from the high fever. I'm so worried about him, Dao." Joong was sleeping in Dunk's lap and Dunk lovingly tapped on his arm. "Seemed the medicine didn't work properly."

Dao laughed a little. "And you aren't worrying about us? You should worry about yourself too, your wounds aren't looking too great."

Dao talked about his brother's wound on the first day. Dunk was already forgetting about that, it's been seven days they locked here.

"It's been so long since we saw the light, we are all gonna die in this cold basement." Dao talked again, but he looked like he wanted to laugh. Everyone here was already losing their minds. "Why aren't they saving us? It's been seven days, we only survived from dog's foods that man gave us and tap water that tastes like hell."

Dao was losing all of his hope from day one, he looked so exhausted and defeated. This time, it's Dunk's turn to give a little bit of hope for all of them. He held Joong's hand and caressed it lovingly. The medicine worked to reduce a little of his fever but he wasn't completely cured. He needed to go to hospital, Joong still could die here anytime.

"We can't wait for our parents to save us, we need to save ourself, one more day we're here we gonna lost him."

"Little brother." Dao called him softly.

"What? Don't call me that, you're only 3 minutes older than me." Dao smiled at the usual words.

"If you must choose between me ; the older twin brother you hate so much because his existence gave you s0 much pain or Joong , your friend that you love so much until you gave your future to save him. Who will you choose ?"

Dunk was silent in his place. Why did his brother suddenly ask that?

"It was a stupid question, right? You will choose Joong."

Dunk didn't like the sad tone on his brother's voice. The way he talked sounded like he never meant anything in Dunk's life.

"I won't answer that because it's stupid question. I won't choose between you and Joong." Dunk bit his lips, he wanted to say something but.. Ah, whatever.

"You are also so important to me, brother." He said it at the end.

Dao had the scent of dark chocolate and peppermint and his scent showed Dunk how he felt right now, he was shocked by Dunk's word like he never expected that his brother would say that.

"I'm not lying when I say that I'm jealous of you and sometimes my jealousy turns into hatred. But even though I tried to hate you more, it made me realize that I loved you more too. I would only say this once only, and because we were not at home, but really... I adored you so much, Dao."

Dunk now felt shy.

But he could feel Dao moving in his direction and the next thing, he embraced him.

Dunk was shocked by the sudden act.

As brothers, they never hug each other.

Dao didn't say anything but Dunk could understand his feelings.

He loved me too.

Dao released the hug and said something Dunk didn't expect. "If you must choose between your life, mine and Joong's on days ten. Please choose yourself. If you get killed here, my life will be ruined and I know by heart that this kid's life is also ruined. Even though my name is Dao, you are the true star that lightened both of our lives. So please, save yourself first."

No, you are wrong, Dao. If something happens to you and Joong, my life will be ruined too. I can't live without you two.

They were hanging on for another three days, Joong was still sick. He was too weak to move and something terrible happened on day ten.

It's the day to kill someone.

It's not like they didn't try to do anything to escape from this hell but there was nothing they could do. This room had no window, the only access was from the door which was always locked. The man never visited them again after what happened on day four. The little hole under the iron door was too little for them. They were hopeless.

"He will kill us this time, Phi!" Joong was panicked.

"No, he won't. I will protect you no matter what." Dunk tried to calm the alpha even though he knew it wouldn't help much because he was shaking from the fear too.

"Stupid, you should protect yourself first." Dao sounded afraid too.

TUK TUK TUK

"He is there...... right behind this door."

The door was opened wide and the light from the outside blinded them all. They weren't used to seeing the light so they needed time adjusting themself. It's the right moment for their kidnapper to attack them.

Dunk didn't know what happened but the next thing he heard was Dao's loud screaming.

Joong and Dunk opened his eyes in shock when they saw how the psychopath stepped over and over again on Dao's leg with both of his legs on top of it. He wanted to crush that leg.

Dunk was fast to move to Dao's direction to help him but his kidnapper grabbed him by the neck and choked him.

"STOP!!!!" Joong screamed and walked toward them but his body was too weak to move, he crawled on the floor.

Joong felt like dying to see his friends getting crushed like that. It's better for the kidnapper just to kill him and release the twins. He was an alpha but he couldn't do anything, he hated himself so much. He was sick so he needed to be taken care of by both Dao and Dunk. Dunk did the unimaginable things just to save him. The guilt and the feeling of helplessness consumed him alive.

Joong hated his life so much , he better be the one that must be dead today. His parents wouldn't care about it either.

"KILL ME! JUST KILL ME!" He screamed again. "Release them, please... kill me ." He cried.

It's too much for a nine year old to take, his heart hurted so bad and he couldn't breathe.

Joong fainted and he didn't witness the tragedy that happened after that.

"It's not fun just to kill you." Korn released his grab on Dunk and Dunk fell into the floor. "I said that I would let you go, omega. I love your bravery, so I will give you another present."

Dunk didn't like the sound of his kidnapper's voice.

"Since I already crushed your brother's leg, now you are the only one who can escape here."

Korn looked at Dunk's eyes and smiled. "You can bring one of them with you."

No.

"Choose."

No.

Dunk was shaking hard, he couldn't breathe. How can he choose between his twin brother and Joong? It's better for this crazy bastard just to kill him first!

"Just kill me." He said at the end.

"Really?" Korn was having so much fun and he laughed so hard. "Ok, I will give you a minute to think. Choose one between your brother and your alpha, if you don't give me a name to be left here in one minute. I will kill all of you here."

The tears streamed down on Dunk's face and he couldn't feel anymore. He felt so numb and so helpless. He just wanted to die, but he didn't want today was also the day Joong and Dao's deaths.

"Tik tok, tik tok... Sixty.... Fifty nine... Fifty eight..."

"DUNK!!!" Dao screamed at him and tried to make him back to reality. "HE WILL KILL ALL OF US IF YOU DON'T SAY SOMETHING!!!" "Forty five... forty four.." The man was still counting like a crazy person.

"Little brother!"

Dao snapped him from his thoughts and Dunk weakly looked at him at the floor trying to reach him with his upper body. He touched Dunk's hand and cried, it's the first time Dunk saw him cry. "Little brother. You can't choose between me and Joong and I know i t, and it's not your fault. So I will be the one who chooses for you," He was shaking hard. "Please, go with Joong and live for me. Please... as I had so many sins to you, I made you suffer a lot, I'm the one who didn't deserve to be alive. I don't want to see you die here. Please, I beg you, my little brother. Please say my name that will be left here and save your life."

Dunk cried, when he saw those eyes in front of him, to the eyes he used to hate so much, he realized that he never hated his brother. He loved him so much. He was someone who was always with him even before they were born in this world and he wanted to be with him for as long as he lives.

"Phi."

Dao smiled. "You never call me Phi. I'm glad to hear that."

It used to be easy. Dunk could say Joong's name to be left here and saved his brother's life. Dao was his twin brother, but when he looked down to Joong's unconscious body on the floor, he knew the best that he could never say Joong's name either. The concept of him no longer alive in this world tortured him as much as Dao's so he was so wrecked by the choices that were given to him.

"You can't ever say his name, I know it, Dunk."

Dunk's gazes back at Dao. "Why can't I say his name? You are my brother, I should have saved you."

Dao smiled, he looked like he knew something but he didn't say anything.

"Ten.. nine..." The crazy person was still counting and Dunk wanted to kill him that badly, but he brought a knife and he was way bigger and stronger than him. He was just a little kid.

"Little brother, I beg you. Please say my name." Dao looked him in the eyes. "You are the person I love so much."

"Three.. Two..."

Dunk cried and threw his gaze toward the crazy kidnapper.

" Dao ." He said the name wearily and then Dao smiled at him.

"One."

"It's okay." Dao still smiled at him when Dunk was carried Joong's tiny body in his back and ran away from that place from that opened door. "It's okay.... Don't blame yourself, Dunk... I love you, little brother. Always."

The yellow shirt.

"You hate the color of black and white because of me, right? I want you to hate me less today. I used the clothes in your favorite color."

Dunk cried hard while running away and the image of Dao on the floor using the yellow shirt broke him into pieces. His brother loved him so much. He loved him until he could give his life to him.

"Dao, I'm sorry.... I'm sorry...." Dunk cried hysterically while still running in the forest. Where was he kidnapped all this time? No wonder no one could save them, he was kidnapped in the mountain with forest surrounding them.

Dunk felt so wrecked, he wanted to die but Joong's breathing made him keep going. After running for so long, Joong woke up.

"Where are we, Phi?"

Dunk still cried hard and his heart was so broken but he wanted to say something to Joong. The kid didn't do anything wrong.

"It will be ok, Nong. After this road, we are gonna see our family. Right after this forest end, they are there waiting for us."

Dunk checked a bit on Little Joong and he looked so much in pain.

"Phi, my head is so hurt, everything burned, I feel like dying. I won't make it."

Dunk fell on the ground with Joong on his back, he was so exhausted and he still couldn't breathe properly.

"Please, go alone, Phi. You can't die with me here."

Joong begged and cried, he held the older one's hand so tightly.

"Where is Phi Dao?"

Dunk's heart crushed into nothingness. He wanted to die here.

He saw the darkness start to consume him again.

The same with Joong.

It was too much to handle for both of them.

"Phi, if you survive this. Please remember me. Just by the thoughts that you will always remember me make me feel like I'm no longer alone in this world. I will meet you on the other side of this world."

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When Dunk was awake several days later, he woke up alone in the comfortable bed of one of the hospitals he was familiar with. The first thing he did after waking up alone was screaming, he screamed and cried his heart out.

In the end, he couldn't save anyone.

Why was he still alive here?

He felt so sorry and the guilt was eating him alive.

He wanted to die.

The nurse and doctors heard his scream and cried, they were all rushed into the hospital room.

His mother and father were there too, he only saw Dunk's desperate crying with so much pain in his heart. Yesterday, they buried their oldest son's lifeless body and now her youngest son came back with so much pain he must have taken it.

The people who lived near the forest found him and the Aydin's kid, lying helplessly in the forest ground with a pale and weak body. They thought they both couldn't make it, but the doctor saved them both. As for Dao, that crazy bastard Korn surrendered to the police by himself and told everything, he didn't look guilty of doing this at all. He looked like he won something in his life and Boonprasert's family would make sure that he would be tortured all his life in the prison as revenge to kill one of their children and make the other one into a living corpse.

Dao was found dead in the basement, alone .

Both of Dao's and Joong's parents were doing their best to find their kids. It was a total ten days of torture for both of them. They did everything to find the kids but the place of kidnapping was out of their reach, they failed their kids.

The parents were imagining that one day they would lose all of their kids and it was a living hell for them. There are no parents in this world that want to see their kid die before them.

And seeing Dao's death in front of their eyes, Dao's parents felt like they wanted to die already. They cried hard and were so broken until they thought that nothing could ever fix that.

Dao was gone.

Their oldest son, their flesh and blood, their pride, their bunch of happiness was gone.

And Korn's revenge was successful.

He made the Boonprasert's family taste the feeling of losing their child.

But not with the other's family...

This tragedy broke the relationship between the two families.

Korn, that bastard, was telling everything, including how Dunk was choosing Joong's life over his brother's life. He smiled crazily as if he was the happiest person in this world when he said that, more than when he confessed that he killed Dao. He also told what else Dunk did to save Joong.

Joong's parents couldn't say thank you nor sorry for the things that had happened and it broke their good relationship and also their business combination.

This news couldn't be out to the world.

This kidnaping case must be unknown to the world because Dunk was in the wrong position here.

How could he choose another child over his own brother?

Even until now, Dunk's parents couldn't forgive him for that.

The Boonprasert's family still had one child left but he was nothing but a living corpse now. He came back to them with his soul already long gone.

Dunk's condition was so broken, he couldn't sleep, he only cried and screamed for a month in his hospital's room. He didn't talk to anyone and he couldn't eat either. No one talked about Joong in this house anymore so no one told Dunk that the other kid was saved. In Dunk's eyes he lost his brother and also... Joong. He lost everything and the fact that he was still alive alone was a sin.

His mother felt bad for him but she couldn't handle staying near him after what he did to his other son.

Only Auntie Pim who was visiting him regularly.

Auntie Pim was so broken also.

He raised both Dao and Dunk since they were babies, now one of them is gone and the other one looked at him with nothing in his eyes. It's so empty that Auntie Pim was afraid that Dunk's soul was already following Dao to heaven.

The Post Trauma Dissociative Disorder (PTSD) was indeed something Dunk experienced right now and his parents were doing everything to cure him but nothing seemed to work until one day, after one year, he woke up and forgot about everything that has happened in the past three years.

The doctor said that the pain, the guilt, and the trauma was too much for him until he unconsciously made himself forget about it to keep living. It's his self-defense and his parents used that to erase everything. To make Dunk alive again as their son who lived the way they want.

And also to make Dunk keep in that way.

He didn't want Dunk to remember his past because he couldn't bear the pain, so it was a good way to solve their problem.

As long as the kid didn't meet with the other kid he was saved.

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When Joong was awake, he woke up earlier than Dunk, he was crazily searching for Dunk. He was asking his parents about Dunk but his parents didn't give him an answer. So he looked out for himself, he heard that there was a funeral of Boonpresert's family in this hospital so he frantically went there.

His heart beat in pain and he was death terrified.

When he reached the funeral home and saw a familiar face displayed above the coffin, he couldn't breathe.

It was Dunk's face.

Joong's memories were cut off when the kidnapper came to the basement and crushed Dao's leg and wanted to kill them all. He didn't know the choices that were given to Dunk and what Dao and Dunk's did to save his life. When they were running in the forest, he unconsciously said that to Dunk. Now when he didn't have the full picture of what was happening and saw Dunk's face on the funeral home, he thought the one who died was Dunk because the kidnapper was choking him hard the last time he remembered the tragedy.

His world was suddenly turned dark and it was darker than in the basement and he fainted again.

The pain of losing Dunk was too much for him, same with Dunk, the trauma and the guilt ate him up until once he woke up again, he also lost all of his memories.

He was so confused when he saw his parents were with him all the time, it was so weird to see them around Joong. So to help Joong from not remembering the past, his parents were flying back to London and made the child think that nothing happened in his life.

But one thing was definitely causing him something from this tragedy even after he also unconsciously erased his memories of Dunk and Dao and what happened in that basement.

He couldn't sleep.

Everytime he closed his eyes, it's so dark, it terrified him.

The darkness wa too much for him until his brain forbade him to close his eyes for a little bit longer than a wink because he was afraid of the darkness.

Joong was confused why he hated the dark so much but the doctor was only saying that he suffered from insomnia.

And that is what he believed for at least more than ten years.

He suffered from insomnia and he couldn't smell any of omega's scent.

He didn't know the real reason behind his insomnia and the scent that he could only smell in that darkest moment of his life.

That's why he could only smell Dunk's scent after they met again.

Because that's the only smell he could scent in the ten days of the scariest day of his life.

His and Dunk's ten days of tragedy.

That's the story of Joong, Dunk, and Dao from their forgotten pasts.

Now Dao is gone, do you think Joong and Dunk can handle this once they remember everything?

To be continued

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SURPRISE!!!! it's a fast update with two chapters! wow i used all my saturday to write this, what do you think of this two new chapters? i want to hear your opinion, finally after 13 chapters i tell you their past story. hurt right? i was also crying while writing this (this sounds stupid but really...), my heart couldn't take the imagination of little kids were being tortured like that. but yeah, that's their story.

in this chapter we knew the reason behind Joong's insomnia and Joong's inability to scent other's omega scent other than Dunk and the reason behind why Dunk wasn't like an usual omega. it's really connected to each other.

the next chapter we will comeback to the present on Dunk's PoV (before the Germany), Dunk will search for Korn and try to remember everything.

So until the next time, take care my dear readers!

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