[Author's Pov]

A man with a scar on his face walks in hurry to one of the rooms in the hospital. Once he reaches it he opens the door immediately to check if his boss' son is still there. One of his colleagues looks at him with a confused face.

"Where is Khun Dunk?" He asks right away when he notices that someone he must guard isn't present in his hospital room.

"He was taken by the nurse to go to the examination room." His colleague says it nonchalantly.

"Why didn't you two tag along?" The anger starts to boil up from the man who just arrived.

"It's the usual nurse." The other colleague tries to defend themself. "He's safe, don't worry."

The man with the scar curses under his breaths and gazes deathly to two of his underlings. "Korn is here. That bastard who kidnapped and killed madam's sons is here!"

"What?!" The panic starts to be felt from the two men that were guarding Dunk.

"That bastard was in a critical situation, the doctors in the prison couldn't handle it so he was rushed to the nearest big hospital, and that damn hospital is here."

This is definitely bad news.

"Where is madam?" The man with the scar asks again.

"She was in serious talk with Dr. Tong about Khun Dunk's condition."

"We must find Dunk before madam knows that Korn is in the same place with her son."

***

[Dunk]

It's D-Day, right after his examination is done, Dunk must search for a way to escape from this hospital. His mother's guards weren't really keeping their eyes on him, so he can escape after the examination is done.

Dunk is on his way to the examination room on the third floor when he sees something that bothers him. He looks down to the parking area from the third floor's windows and sees a lot of police's cars parked there.

Hmm.. What is happening?

"What is going on down there? Why are there a lot of police cars parked in this hospital?" Dunk asks the nurse who is guiding him to the examination room. The usual nurses in this hospital that he knew for so long. Nurse Priya.

"Oh, it's the usual thing, Dunk. Usually if they have a sick prisoner whose condition can't be saved from inside the prison, they will bring the patient here to ask for our help. There must be a lot of police officers to guard that sick prisoner."

"Ah, I see." Dunk nods in understanding.

"Don't worry."

Dunk continues his walk with Nurse Priya but he is distracted once again when he passes by two police officers and unintentionally listens to their conversation.

"The doctor must save that bastard Korn, he can't be dead!" Says the chubbier police officer.

"You are right, Mr. Kittisak will kill us all if he's dead."

Huh?

Dunk stops his walk and looks at Nurse Priya with a smile on his face. "Nurse, can I go to the toilet first? My stomach is acting up."

Nurse Priya looks confused but he nods. "Sure."

"But I need to take the VIP's bathroom, you know I'm not used with the usual bathroom. Can I borrow your ID-Card?"

The VIP's bathroom needs to be opened by staff's card, it's something Dunk can think about right now because he needs this hospital's staff ID Card to open something else. "I will accompany you there, let's-"

"Nurse Priya." Another nurse comes in the scene and calls Nurse Priya, Dunk smiles at how perfect her timing is.

"Seems like your colleague needs your help. Please let me borrow your ID Card, i won't use it for something that will trouble you, i only need to go to the toilet. We've known each other for so long, Nurse."

Nurse Priya still looks contemplated but at the end she gives Dunk her ID Card.

"See you at the examination room, Dunk."

Dunk smiles and walks toward the direction of the toilet he already knows, he basically remembers all the location of this hospital because of his frequent visits to this hospital. After Nurse Priya walks with her colleague, Dunk walks around and directs his way to the emergency stairs to go to the first floor.

ICU.

The newly arrived patient must be placed in the ICU first.

He knows by heart what he will be seeing there and to be honest his heart beats so fast. If the Korn he heard from the conversation between two police officers that passed by him before is the same Korn as his kidnapper in the newspaper piece his Auntie gave him yesterday, what should he say to him?

Hello, you kidnapped me long ago, and killed my brother. I lost my memories after that, can you tell me what happened there? I want to remember everything.

That sounds ridiculous even for his own ears.

And another question arises, is he even conscious enough to reply to his question?

He was rushed to this hospital because of a near-death situation, right? There is no way a criminal like him was having a chance to breathe outside the iron bars if it's not something so urgent.

Dunk doesn't know, he tries not to think too much and go there first before his mother or her men find him.

Not too long, Dunk reaches the ICU's door and he sneakily opens the door with Nurse Priya's ID Card. It is so easy to spot the prisoner here because he can find at least two men in the police uniform guarding in front of one of the chambers. Dunk walks faster to the direction and ignores the question from the hospital worker who is asking what he is doing here.

When he reaches there, the curtain to cover the chamber is slightly opened so he can see the patient's face who lays on that ICU's bed. His heart almost stops beating when he can recognize who is that man who looks like he can die anytime soon.

He looks so pale and older, but Dunk definitely remembers the face of his worst nightmare in his entire life.

Dunk falls on his knees and looks at the man who is still laying down on the bed with a terrified feeling. He suddenly can't breathe. The sight of this man gives him an utterly terrified feelings. His forgotten memories suddenly flashes into his mind like forcing Dunk to take so many things at the same time, until he can't proceed with anything. It's too nosy in his head right now.

People around him; polices, nurses, doctors are all cramped around him try to get him back to his senses but all Dunk's focus is on Korn's face. The psycho kidnapper and killer opens his eyes and looks at Dunk directly and the way he smiles while looking at him, Dunk knows that man is recognizing him.

"How are you, Dunk?" He asks him right away even though Dunk knows he endures the pain on his old body. "Ha, the omega's one is the bravest one." Korn might die today, but before he die he gives the only son of Boonprasert family one more last torture.

He smirks when he sees Dunk's face has changed. His pupil is dilated and his body shakes hard.

Now, he eventually remembers.

"I said that I would let you go, omega. I love your bravery, so I will give you another present."

"Since I already crushed your brother's leg, now you are the only one who can escape here."

"You can bring one of them with you."

"Choose."

"Three.. Two..."

" Dao ."

"One."

Dunk is familiar with the darkness, it was his, Dao, and Joong's old friend. And once again he walks toward the darkness, this time it's darker than ever. The last thing before he collapses he hears his mother's painful scream.

Then he remembers how he screamed and cried that day, in the same hospital, a long time ago.

When he thought he was the only survivor.

Finally, the pandora box called Dunk's forgotten memories is opened wide.

And no one can close it again.

***

Several years ago, she saw her son sitting on that hospital bed using a hospital gown alone in his despair. He was doing nothing for hours, just looking out at the window. The woman who brought him into this world wanted to get closer to him, she wanted to ask about his feeling. She wanted to hug him and said that everything is gonna be okay.

But she couldn't do that , because whenever she saw him she remembered her other son who just passed away before them. The faces were too identical, it pained her heart. She knew that Dunk was so broken, he didn't look like a human anymore. But whenever she looked at his face, she wanted to scream, she wanted to cry.

She wanted to blame him for his beloved son's death, even though she knew her second son was also the victim of this tragedy.

So, she couldn't bring herself to face her son who is still breathing in this world. She just remained still outside of the hospital room, let Auntie Pim try to talk to him, and brought him back to this world.

Right now, the woman is facing the same thing again.

It is true when people say that history repeats itself because the Dunk in front of him right now is the same Dunk who was looking out at the window all day long with nothing on his eyes several years ago, when he was still a ten year old kid. He is still alive but his eyes show the people who look at him, nothing . It's so lifeless.

This is why she was doing everything in her power to make his son not remember her past because she knew he couldn't handle it.

But the universe once again mocked her, she did everything, but in the end if the world obliged Dunk must meet again with that bastard, it will happen in ways she couldn't imagine.

And if Dunk must have his memories back, what can she do to stop that?

"Madam, you should go inside." Dunk's mother looks at her side and sees Auntie Pim, her worker for so many years, tries to talk to her. "Maybe something will change if you talk to him right now, something you couldn't do to ten years old Dunk."

She is right.

Even though she wanted to blame Dunk for his brother's passing, it's never his fault and he also didn't want his brother to die on the same day of him having another chance to keep living.

So, with a shaking hand that beautiful woman opens the door and walks slowly towards her only son who is still looking out at the window.

"Dunk."

Dunk knows that his mother was always there, at the door, wanting to go near him. He also knows that right now his mother is making an effort to ask him about his feelings.

But all this time he wanted his mother to ask about his feelings, but right now he doesn't feel like he wants it anymore.

The memories are back.

He is glad it's back.

So he can have his punishment.

Remembering his past is one of his punishments for not choosing his brother's life over another person's life. It will be easier if that bastard Korn just killed him that day because he was already so familiar with the darkness.

Ten days he was locked up there, he almost couldn't see anything. But right now, what he is feeling is way darker than that.

The guilt is too big and the pain is too hard to bear.

What can he do to atone his sins?

He was sinful to his brother, he took a part to have him killed by Korn's hands.

He was sinful to his parents for making them lose the star and suffering an indescribable pain of losing a son, a son that they loved so much.

"Mother."

Dunk opens his mouth without looking at his mother.

"You must hate me so deeply, right?" Dunk wants to cry, but no tears come out from his eyes. Now he can't even cry . "I deserve it."

His mother doesn't say anything.

"Please continue to hate me, it's the only way I can keep living."

Dunk finally looks at his mother's face and he is shocked to see the strongest woman he has ever known is crying in front of him.

This is the first time Dunk sees his mother's tears that are directed to him.

But at the end she can't say anything, Dunk doesn't expect anything from her again.

From now on, he will accept everything that his parents want him to. He will let go of everything that is his because his life is never his life anymore from the moment Dao breathed his last breath.

He doesn't deserve any happiness in this world.

He needs to live in pain and sorrow, it's his punishment.

He will let go of his will, his freedom, and... Joong .

Dunk closes his eyes and remembers all the things that have happened between him and the alpha. Now it all makes sense, all the strong feelings, the affections, the love he has for him despite the short time they knew each other. It all makes sense.

Because his heart knew him longer than his brain. He loves him for so long and he knows he will always keep loving him.

The love that will hurt him, but it's okay, he deserves it.

His love for Joong was the reason that killed Dao that day in the dark basement.

And with the same love, he will use that feelings to torture himself all his life.

He won't ever show up in front of him again, he will make Joong start to give up on him and finally tries to forget about him.

He was hospitalized for more than a week, and all this time, he was aware that Joong was going to this hospital every single day, he could find him with his scent even though it's only a faint one. But he didn't do anything to meet him, he just used a scent blocker to his own pheromone so Joong couldn't find him. So he wouldn't know that Dunk was here in the hospital all this time.

Dunk just wants Joong to completely erase him from his heart and his memories and just starts his life again without him. Because he also doesn't want Joong to remember the past, it's better for him to live like today. Now he understands his mother's feeling of not wanting him to remember his past.

Dunk loves him so much, he never wants him to get hurt. This feeling remains the same, in the past, in the present, and until the far future.

Let Dunk alone who will love him and miss him as much as he is breathing. This is his punishment.

He thought that would be his punishment. He will be fine with that, but almost a month later he hears something that makes him realize that his final punishment is not his suffering, but to live in the world where Joong doesn't exist anymore.

After what happened in the hospital, his mother was going back to Paris. She was busy with her job and the supervision over him was getting loose. It's not like he will go anywhere. He surrendered his life already. And she knew that.

And Korn, he died that day in the hospital.

He suffered a severe brain cancer, his parents knew it all along and they kept the man on medicine because they wanted him to keep alive while bearing the pain of his sickness. It his parents way to torture him. They didn't want him to easily die like that. They wanted him to rot in jail and suffer as long as the world let him to. And his parents locked him in a solitary confinement where there was no light to get through the room. They tortured him the same way the man was torturing their children. For more than ten years already.

He deserved it.

Dunk's father once called him and asked him about how far he remembered. And he said that he remembered everything that had previously been missing from his memories. There was a long pause before his alpha father spoke again, he was a very busy man so he could only say something like not to search for another source of pain again.

Dunk knew the meaning behind his words.

He wanted Dunk to let go of the only person he ever had the feeling for.

Joong.

But today, Auntie Pim knocked on his bedroom's door and she told him that one of Dunk's friends named Phuwin came here. He came to give news about Joong's condition.

He said that Joong is in Germany to search for him and he was involved in a car accident due to lack of sleep. He was in a critical situation and can be dead anytime soon.

Dunk's heart stops beating for a second when he hears the news. The fear of losing him is coming back at full force now he remembers his past. Dunk doesn't know why, but just the thought of Joong getting sick makes him breathless.

And now, he is once again facing death because of Dunk.

If this is Dunk's punishment from what he did in the past to Dao, he will rather just jump out from his balcony and follow Dao to the afterworld.

He can't take the idea that Joong is no longer breathing in this world.

So he pushes aside what he was planning to and books a flight to Germany where Joong is in the middle of surgery. He doesn't tell his parents about this, only Auntie Pim who knows.

He wants to make sure by himself that Joong is still here with him in this world.

***

[This part below contains smut, please suit yourself and read it responsibly.]

"Joong... sto..p.. mmhh."

"Shut up."

When Dunk arrived at the hospital in Germany right after he touched down in this familiar country and learnt that Phuwin was lying to him. He never felt so relieved in his life. When he talked to Joong (even though he thought it was only a dream) and witnessed that he is still alive, he finally could breathe again.

But Joong was sick, he was so weak. And it still breaks Dunk's heart like no other. It reminded him of when he was taking care of Little Joong in that basement and the painful feelings he felt when he touched his body and it was burned in his skin. When Dunk looked at how dark his sleeping bag was below his brown eyes and how skinny he is right now, he knew that Dunk was messing up with Joong's life.

Leaving him alone without him understanding any single thing was just the same thing as killing him slowly. Dunk almost became the reason for someone's death again. And he doesn't want it.

So he needs to give Joong closure . At least if he can't give him an honest explanation about what was happening in the past month, he can give him closure for their relationship. So he can finally move on and maybe try to forget about Dunk.

After that realization, he made a decision to face Joong once again and told him all the lies to break up with him. He fell out of love with him was something he could think about at the last moment before he reached the art gallery he was picked to meet Joong again. He intentionally chose a public place so he didn't have to be alone with Joong, someone his heart aching so bad because of his yearning for him.

After a month, he could finally meet Joong again. You have no idea how Dunk wanted to just run into him and hug him tight, he wanted to do the thing he didn't deserve. But when he looked at the brown eyes, now he also remembered Dao, and he remembered about his punishment.

He doesn't deserve to feel any happiness again, so he said all the evil things to someone he loves the most. He hurted him, Dunk knew. But Dunk never expected that Joong would act like this.

He definitely didn't accept Dunk's decision to break up with him. He hates it so much and now he is showing him how much he hates the idea of breaking up with him.

He never expected that his decision to go and meet Joong again will end up with his alpha trying to tear all of his clothes and kiss him like he wants both of them to touch the fire.

Joong is a gentleman, but what he does to him right now is far from the word gentle. Everytime he touches him, it burns and leaves marks. Everytime Dunk tries to breathe and smell his pheromones, it's crystal clear that Joong doesn't see him the way he saw him before his disappearance. Now he looks at Dunk with the eyes of a beast who wants to conquer his prey.

His alpha's side is showing again. Before, it once happened in the bathroom on their trip with Pond and Phuwin, but he still could snap himself back at the last time and stopped what they were almost doing. But today, Dunk isn't sure that Joong wants to get himself back. Just from the way he doesn't hold back his pheromone, Dunk knows that Joong intends to make Dunk give up and just fully submit himself to the alpha.

"Joong, please."

Dunk tries to touch him, to at least do something with his weak power to stop this man. When Joong realizes what his omega is trying to do, he grabs his two hands and holds it over his head with his one hand, tries to stop his omega's movement and shows his dominance. He is so strong, Dunk almost can't believe he can get this strong just right after he was discarded from hospital. His other hand is on the omega's back neck pulling his lips on his so he can easily eat him up. The kisses are rough, Joong licks, bites, and shoves his tongue to Dunk like he really wants to destroy him.

Something weird is happening with the omega right now, because he doesn't hate this. If he can clap, his inner omega will clap right away . But the situation is wrong, Dunk must not get carried away with this when he was planning to break up with Joong just several hours ago. He didn't deserve any excitement but he can't lie when he says that he feels so aroused by Joong's rough demeanor to him right now. He always wants to taste Joong's rougher act but he never did that and his alpha had so much self control over himself. He never really wanted to hurt Dunk so he always showed him his very gentle acts, but all this time, the omega always wanted to taste this side of him.

With every touch, Dunk is also losing himself, and gives it up to his second's gender needs. He never knows how much an omega's want to just be fully submitted to an alpha, how much his second gender wants him just to surrender, he knows it all now because of Joong. He somehow knows that his submission will also give him freedom.

The alpha keeps abusing the omega's lips, and the omega is trying to hold his last thread of sanity. Joong smirks on his lips when he can feel something below them. Dunk closes his eyes when he can't control what's below there. He can feel how his hole starts producing his slick.

What should he do?!

Joong stops kissing him and directs his attention to his omega's neck. He bites his neck, not only once, but several times. He intentionally only licks the omega's pheromone gland, he will take care of that later . When he kisses and bites Dunk's neck, Dunk opens his eyes in shock when he feels Joong's other hand which isn't holding his hands is ripping off his shirt. Dunk doesn't know if he's trembling from the fear or from the anticipation.

He shouldn't be doing this.

He knows it, but it's so hard to fight right now. Not only to fight Joong, but to fight himself is also so fucking hard.

Joong moves back and looks at Dunk with a smirk on his face. "You are so wet." He proceeds to remove every fabric attached on his body until Dunk can see him fully naked. He saw it several times already, but this time, it's different . The alpha is so angry and looks darker than usual and somehow he looks... so hot . The way he commands the omega to take off his pants by only his eyes and his eyebrows, the omega is feeling something on his stomach.

"Pants off." He speaks at the end when his omega is only looking at his alpha's cock and not doing his command.

Dunk is shakingly removing his pants and his briefs until they are both fully naked. The omega wants to cry when he looks by himself at how hard and how wet he is right now. This is so bad, he will really lose himself under Joong's touch and his dominance aura right now. He feels something weird on the lower bottom of his stomach and everything starts to feel hot.

The alpha is back on top of him and starts doing things with his chest. He gives his attention on his left nipple with his mouth, he keeps licking and biting the omega's hardened nipple while his right hand squeezes the other one. Dunk doesn't understand if Joong wants to punish him or pleasure him, because it feels so damn good Dunk starts losing his mind.

Every self-consciousness and every pain he was taking in this past month is suddenly gone, he can't think or feel the pain again. All he can think right now is how good Joong's mouth on his chest and how aroused he is by the way his alpha's hardening cock rubbing against his in a very rough manner, he unconsciously starts moving his hip to follow the rhythm, to feel more friction. This is driving him crazy how it's feels like they are dry humping on each other while the alpha sucking his chest and leaves mark everywhere on the omega's clean and milky bare chest and stomach.

Usually, Joong was always talking to him, asking how he felt or if he had a concern over their sexual activity. He used to be like that, but the Joong on top of him right now isn't talking about anything. He just growls low on himself and keeps doing whatever he wants to do to his omega who hurted him so bad all this time.

The omega opens his eyes again in shock when he can feel the alpha's finger on his rim. He starts to shove two fingers to his wet hole and the omega can't think straight right now. He is abusing the omega from upper and lower of his body, and... it feels good . No, good is an understatement, it's amazing . Dunk wants to cry at how good it feels and he can't stop his mouth from moaning anymore. He was holding himself so badly, he didn't want to enjoy this, he still felt he shouldn't be doing this, but he can't do that anymore.

He is finally submitting himself to his alpha.

When the alpha hears his beloved omega's moan, he stops all the things he did to the omega's body and back away once more. Dunk can't help but feel disappointed. He is kneeling on the side of the omega's thighs and Dunk almost can't breathe when he sees that throbbing and hard's cock spring out in front of him. He is so big.

Dunk feels so shy right now and he believes that his cheek is reddening so hard. Not only his cheek, everything on his body must be so red right now. He is so aroused until he can't think of anything, he just wants to feel something over his body again, especially on his lower part but Joong isn't doing anything except for looking at him with so much lust in his eyes, trying to burn him. And it makes him get frustrated.

It's so stupid if the omega begs for the alpha's touch right now so he tries to touch himself, he also tries to rub his own dick within his thigh to just feel something there. He wants to come, he wants to come so badly.

"You are so desperately beautiful."

The omega was so full of his need to come until he didn't realize that his alpha is rubbing hard his own cock with his hand while his eyes fully landed on the beautiful omega's below him. The view of him is just too beautiful, he is red everywhere, his lips and chest are swollen and the alpha's bite marks are also everywhere on his body. His eyes are definitely clouded with his own lust. And his smell.... is fantastic. The smell of his leaking slick from his beautiful hole is sending the alpha straight to heaven's gate.

The view are just too beautiful he can't help but eyes fucking him right now.

Joong can't help but moan, groan, and curse under his breath at how amazing he feels right now. He can't think anymore. He is doing his thing just with his own hand and his eyes , and when he sees that his beloved omega is desperate for him too, he feels like in the cloud nine and releases his fluid on his omega's body and that is the sexiest thing that ever landed on his eyes.

The alpha is still breathless from his come but the puckering hole of his omega seduces him to go to another round. He still isn't coming and he wants it so bad. The omega is definitely losing his mind too.

In the last minute before he completely can't think anymore, Joong thinks about all that happened between them in that art gallery. Joong is sure that Dunk was lying about wanting to break up with him.

There is no way he will move his hips desperately to Joong's over sensitive cock right now if he wants to break up with him. He is more like an omega who is wanting his alpha to knot him. He will do that to his beautiful omega, he promises. But right now, he wants to punish him first because he was abandoning him for over a month, and once he came back to him, he said nonsense things like wanting a break up. That was a total lie and he still can't understand the reason behind it.

He will take care about the reasons later, right now he just wants to do all the things he wants to do with his omega. And then he sees red, and the feeling of wanting to just eat, bite, mark, and conquer his omega comes back once again. At full force.

He wants to fuck him so badly and he looks like he wanted to be fucked so badly.

They are really match made in heaven at how compatible they are in fulfilling their sexual needs. They both ruin each other so badly so they can't do this with another alphas and another omegas.

Thinking about Dunk with another alphas makes Joong's stomach feel something and he becomes angrier just by the thoughts.

Dunk is also feeling weird on his stomach, he feels the urge need to get fucked by the alpha who just poured his semen all over his body. He feels so dirty but it weirdly arouses him more. He wants more, please do more. He starts to feel an eagerness he was familiar with. He experienced this before. His throat also starts to feel dry and he almost loses control of his mind. Then he feels so hot, he feels burning if his alpha doesn't touch him more.

He tries to touch his alpha too and he is shocked by it, his alpha is also damn hot in his hand. The way he didn't communicate with him and just looked at him with pure lust and dominance. The way his brown eyes are changing into the darker side. The way he rubs his pheromone all over his omega and bites him as if he wants to mark him at this place, this time. He definitely didn't show him this side of him before.

Dunk tries so hard to start thinking about what is happening with Joong but his mind is too clouded. Something weird is also happening to him right now. Before he can think anything, Joong turns his body around so his butts and his holes are present in front of the alpha's eyes. He starts biting his body again from his back lower to his inner thighs. Dunk feels the shiver and he wants to beg to him just to fuck him already. He looks back for awhile and without realizing he smiles when he sees that Joong is hard again, more than enough to fuck him right away.

"Alpha, please, just put it in."

The voice he is making right now.

Isn't this the same tone of voice when he was in heat?

"I will knock you up, I will make you bear my children so you can't run away from me again."

He never heard Joong's talk to him with so much dominance in his voice like this before. That makes him realize that he doesn't know anything about this man when he is fully controlled by his dominant alpha's nature. What happened in that bathroom was only a spoiler, now he will get the full picture.

Dunk's heart beats faster when he is finally realizing that maybe Joong and him will go into rut and heat at the same time.

In this unknown hotel in the middle of a foreign country where no one can reach him because he just remembered that Dunk's phone was throwed away by Joong before and Joong's phone.. Dunk doesn't think he wants to use that either to contact anyone else when the person he desires so much is here with him. Lying helplessly below him and accepting his hardening and big cock on his holes without anything between them anymore. It's finally skin to skin and Dunk is way too gone to think that their future might become more complicated by their act today.

Because at the moment they are only an alpha and an omega who is facing their rut and heat, at the same time.

Universe once again shows them that their path is bound to be collided at one same point, doesn't care how far they always tried to walk away from each other.

To be continued

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we are officially entering part 3 where story will get more intense (and i will write more smut too lol, i hope my parents won't ever find this story hahaha) , so how was this chapter? please kindly send me your thoughts here hehe

next chapter, what we will have in the next chapter... hmmm... hahahaha kindly wait for it, i will write it as usual, as fast as possible. see you next chapter! (the author's note getting too short this time because the author is feeling shy HAHAHA)

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