[Author's PoV]

When Dunk's mother heard that her son was already flying back to Thailand, she checked the validity of the information with her husband's colleague who works in the immigration. Once she had the truth, she called her private jet to pick her up from Germany and bring her back to her country. Her husband didn't accompany her because he needed to go to a conference in New York. As long as he already knew his son's position, he usually let his wife take control from there.

Dunk wasn't lying, he was really coming back to Thailand with Joong.

After having another more than ten hours flight, she reaches her home on a Sunday morning. She expected to meet her only son there. There are so many things to be said to him, he needs to know how mad she was all this time. When she heard that Dunk was finally remembering her past and chose not to meet Joong again, she was relieved with that decision. She lowered her guard over him, she believed that he wouldn't disappoint her again. But her trust once again was destroyed when she knew that he went to Germany all by himself to meet Joong.

And their disappearance for more than a week really threw her off to her limit.

It's not an understatement if someone says that she is fucking mad right now.

Then, when she steps foot in her home, she finds other things that really tick her off.

It isn't Dunk, her son, who waits for her there.

It's Joong Archen Aydin.

"What are you doing here? Where is Dunk?" She directly asks him a question when they both sit face to face in her office. Dunk's mother is too mad to control herself, she needs a private place to talk with the man who stole her son from him, so he brought him here.

Aydin's son who is sitting calmly on the chair in front of her looks up to her eyes and she can see a lot of bravery there. What are these two planning?

"Dunk is in my home, maybe waiting for my mother to come home."

What?

And yeah, Joong's mother was also coming back to Thailand with her, in a different private jet, because she couldn't handle breathing in the same place with her for so long.

"What are you two planning?" She asks carefully.

Joong remains silent for a while then he looks up again to say something that Dunk's mother never expected to be the answer. "We thought so hard about what we should do to fix this situation, but mam.." He stops talking and gives her a bitter smile. " We couldn't find anything . So I said to him that we need to ask the one who always gives us the questions. We need to ask directly to both of our parents' representatives to know what they really want for us, what they're thinking, and what they expect us to be."

Dunk's mother wants to open her mouth to say one absolute answer.

Don't meet with my sons ever again.

But Joong opens his mouth first. "Except for our separation. We can't be separated anymore."

There is a loud pang in Dunk's mother's chest when she hears that. Don't tell me that they...

"You were mating with my son?!"

Joong's silence is a loud answer.

That moment, Dunk's mother feels like she has nothing more in this world.

"Why did my son do this to me? Does he really want to see me suffering so much?" Her voice is nothing but a whisper, a strong woman like her feels so helpless right now. Why did her only son do this to her? After Dao's death, it's hard to see his face and now why does he need to be mating with someone who will always remind her of the unfair death of her oldest son?

Joong can see the turmoil inside Dunk's mother right now and it's the first time she expresses it without any filter. She looks so broken right now.

"When Dunk was remembering everything from our past, he decided to leave me. He came to Germany to break up with me." Joong starts talking again and the woman in front of him is back to see him with her eyes full of hatred. "He really said those hurtful things to me. He really tried to live the way you wanted him to live, mam."

Joong knows that a glamorous and elegant woman in front of him is taken aback for a little bit. She didn't expect the real reason why Dunk flew to Germany to meet him.

"He was so ready to throw away his happiness just to give you happiness ." Joong adds. "He felt so guilty to Dao and to his parents. He thought that he was the reason for the unfortunate things that we experienced when we were only a nine and ten years old kid . He wanted to repent his sin to you and to his twin brother by not feeling any more happiness in his life. He was so ready to follow whatever you wanted her to be, and threw away his freedom and happiness. Dunk is a good kid like that, mam."

Dunk's mother only looks at him without really saying anything, but Joong knows that she listens to his words.

"But in the end, it's not in his power to abandon me, because we were born to be a mate. He is my other half and I'm his other half, we have a bond that is deeper than anything you could think of."

It's true.

Joong is telling the truth here. He wants Dunk's mother for once listening to their words so maybe she can understand their condition, their point of view.

"Even though the human side of us, Joong and Dunk, is separated once again. Nothing can give you an assurance that our inner alpha and inner omega won't search for each other. And when they do that, we can't do anything to stop it." Joong is really sincere with his words, now he understands everything. "Now, I ask you a question again, mam. What can we do to fix this situation? What can we do to make you hate me and Dunk less for the past we can't change?"

Joong feels so unfair right now.

The past wasn't anyone's fault but that bastard name Korn who kidnapped and tortured them to seek his own revenge. These three little kids were just a victim that two of them needed to bear all the blame and hate from the adults all of their life when they both didn't even want to be in that place at all. Can the adult for once look at them as a victim too and empathize with them? It's not easy for them either, especially for Dunk.

It's not only a mother and father who lost their son.

But also a little brother who lost his only sibling in this life.

"If i can turn back time, i want to be the one who died in that dark basement instead of Dao so Dunk's life won't be too miserable like this." Joong saw everything from Dunk's point of view, he still hasn't remembered it by himself, but somehow he knows what he felt and thought at that moment. He saw how he screamed desperately back then, he screamed for Korn just to kill him instead of the twins. He was so ready to sacrifice himself to save the other, just the same as Dao. But he was so weak, he fainted and didn't witness what happened next after that desperate plea.

"Mam." Joong calls her once again, she looks like she isn't present in this room anymore. She looks so broke and can cry anytime soon.

"You only knew that Dunk chose me over Dao from that bastard Korn's mouth, and I believe Dunk won't ever tell you the truth." Joong feels like he needs to say this to Dunk's mother, something he prays that can make her hate Dunk a little bit less.

"The truth?" She finally talks again.

Joong looks at her straight in the eyes so she can see by herself that Joong isn't telling any lies here. "Dao chose it for himself. He somehow knew that Dunk can't choose between me and him, so he forced Dunk to say his name to be killed by Korn that day. Dao really loved Dunk so much, more than you could ever love your sons. He gave his life away so Dunk could live , he thought it was his duty to save two other kids that were younger than him."

Joong knows he hits the right spot on this cold woman's heart when he says;

"Dao was a very kind child."

And Joong sees the woman that Pond was so afraid for, is crying in front of him.

He doesn't know the aftermath of this conversation, he doesn't know that saying the things that Dunk won't ever be able to tell to his parents can make them hate Dunk less or not. He doesn't know what they will do next, but Joong feels he needs to say this. He needs to make them see Dunk not as a reason for their oldest son's death, but also a victim . A living victim of the tragedy in the past.

"For once, mam. I beg you, I beg you to see Dunk as a ten years old kid who lost his brother on the same day as you lost your son. I beg you to try to walk in his shoes and see everything from his point of view. I beg you to try to empathize with him, because he is also your son. Does making him live the way you want him to live while throwing away his happiness, can really make you feel the happiness? Or... all this time did you do this just to punish him?"

The woman who was so angry when they entered this room not too long ago, is gone. Now in front of him, there is only a mother who is just realizing what she did wrong all this time to her only son. The reason why she couldn't enter the hospital room when Dunk was a little kid, was it only because she couldn't bear to see the same face as her deceased son? Or.. was it because she wanted to punish Dunk for the tragedy that was happening in their family?

She can't stop crying and her heart hurts so much.

She was wrong.

She doesn't deserve to be called a mother by Dao or Dunk.

What is Dao thinking right now in heaven? Is he hating her so much? The brother he loved so dearly, the brother he gave his life for so he can still breathe in this world was tortured all the time by his own mother?

Then she remembered the day Dunk burst into tears in front of her.

"Why do you say that hurtful thing to your son? Am I really your son? Why do you always treat me like this! You control my life as if it's yours, whatever i did it must be in line with what you want. Why? Why did you do this to me?"

She carelessly said...

"Because I love you! Because I want to protect you, it's all because of that."

Was she truly doing that because she loved her son? Because she wanted to protect him? Now Dunk is remembering everything and he can face it well, but why does she still want to control him and separate him from Joong Archen?

The love she was saying is a total lie, she deceived herself all this time.

Dunk's mother lowers her head and cries, she can't stop crying since the moment Aydin's son tells her that... all this time, maybe she was an evil mother who wanted to punish her son for something he couldn't do anything about.

Where is Dunk right now? Mother is sorry, Dunk. I'm sorry. You didn't deserve any of this, where are you? I want to hug you so badly and beg for your forgiveness.

Dunk, can you come home?

***

"Why are you here?"

Dunk smiles awkwardly at Joong's mother who is sitting in front of him in the living room. He looks at her eyes to see its resemblance with Joong. The eyes are almost identical. She is way different from her mother, Joong's mother is more modest and does not use too much makeup. But with only a glance of eye, he knows how smart this woman is. She gives an intimidating feeling, just like his mother, but in a different way.

Dunk's mother is the type who likes to explode when she is mad, but this woman in front of him, her cold and silent demeanor are scary. Dunk can't really guess what is on her mind right now, except for she isn't pleasant with the condition surrounded her right now.

"I see that Joong has already marked you." Dunk opens his eyes in horror and covers his neck where the woman in front of him gazes at it. "Your mother won't take it."

Dunk knows, Dunk knows it so well that's why Joong is in his house right now, trying to talk to his mother even though Dunk is 99% sure that Joong can't change her mind. She isn't an easy opponent. But Joong's mother... Dunk can't really guess anything, better he just asks right away. He doesn't know if he will ever have a chance to talk to her again or not. Maybe he will take Joong's chance to meet his parents this year. He remembers that Joong can almost see his parents once a year.

"How about you, mam?"

Joong's mother raises her eyes on him and Dunk smiles awkwardly once again.

"Are you perhaps.. against me and Joong being together?"

She laughs a little, more like mocking him. "No."

Dunk is shocked. Really?

"I'm not the one who lost son here, I don't really care who my son will end up with. It will be great if he ends up with someone who will give me a lesser headache, but we couldn't really control what our inner alpha and inner omega want right? If they choose someone, you will be with that someone despite of everything your human side ever wanted to."

The more he talks to her, the more confused he becomes. Why is she talking so spitefully when she said about inner omega and inner alpha?

"Me and my husband only went to Germany just because your parents won't stop screaming angrily at us and dragged us together to search for both of you. Do you know how much precious time we need to sacrifice just to solve your problem?" She closes her eyes and shakes her head a little, a sign of discontentment. "And then you two come back with more problems." She gazes at Dunk's bitten mark on his neck once again and sighs. "Other than me, you better go home and talk to your mother."

Dunk suddenly remembers Joong's story about his parents on that camp the day after they had their first sex. He remembered in Joong's story, he said something about his mother not really wanting him as a son. He can't help, but wants to ask about what this woman was thinking.

"Joong is talking with my mother, so i will use this time to talk to you too." Dunk braces himself and shakes away the intimidating feelings he received from the woman who calmly only looks at him while crossing her legs. "Can I ask you something?"

"Go on."

Dunk gulps her saliva, damn Joong why is your mom this scary?

"Why did you rarely go home and visit your son? Didn't you miss your son at all?"

"I'm busy." Dunk doesn't expect that she will answer this question so fast. "I make you go speechless, huh?" She adds when she sees the omega in front of him only looks at her and can't say anything more after he hears the answer.

"Ok, since you're already mating with my son, he already knotted you, right?"

Dunk almost opens his mouth in shock when he hears a very straightforward question from Joong's mother. How can she ask this so directly and without any emotions at all? He can't react but his silence is a loud yes for Joong's mother, so she asks another question.

"Do you want it?"

Huh?

"Do you really want to have children with Joong?"

Dunk is speechless.

"As an omega like you, I understand you. I understand our hormones and our inner omega's desires. When we meet a suitable, dominant, top of it all, handsome and strong alpha, we can't help but want to be with them. We want to be dominated by them, we want to have their children. It's our nature, right?" She talks without any emotion at all and Dunk is confused about where this conversation is going.

"But my question is, do you, your human side , also want that? Or is it only a need that is driven by your inner omega?"

Dunk can't really answer this. He doesn't even know what is his desire and what is his inner omega's desire, all he knows is that he only wants Joong Archen.

" Because I don't want it . My inner omega's desire is never in-line with what i want as a human, that's why i despise my son. Every time I look at him, he always reminds me that i lost to my inner omega and i hate it so much."

Dunk's face is changing, he suddenly feels the urge to yell at the woman in front of him. How could she say that? Joong is her son! Joong faced so many lonely nights waiting for his parents to come home.

"Before you yell at me, listen to me." She still sticks to her calm demeanor and this time it irks Dunk so much.

"I never wanted a child, all I wanted in this life was only to have my own company and rule it. That was my life-time goal, to reach that goal I needed to marry my current husband, Joong's father, an alpha. We married before he ever marked me as his omega. To be honest, I hate all of these alpha and omega things, why should we be born this way? Why should we be born as an alpha, the stronger one, and the omega, the weaker one? Why can't we fight for our life equally without labeling us to be the one who will dominate and the one who will be submitted to others? I hate that, i fucking despise this thing."

She hates it so much, Dunk can know it by the way her cold face falls when she speaks up about her thoughts of being an alpha and an omega.

"But one day, my husband marked me and he planted his descendant inside of me."

Dunk can't shut his mouth any longer, he needs to defend his boyfriend's existence. He never knew listening to the one who brought Joong to this world's point of view can hurt this bad. "But you gave birth to him. It was your choice to keep him and bring him to this world, he didn't do anything wrong, he couldn't choose anything."

"You are right, but how could I know that was what I wanted and not what my inner-omega wanted?"

DEG

Dunk is taken aback with the answer and he suddenly touches his stomach, unconsciously .

"I thought it was what I wanted too, until I gave birth to him and saw how unhappy I was being an ordinary housewife. Seeing my own husband take the title I always wanted it to be mine just because he is an alpha and i'm HIS omega. I'm way smarter and more competent than him, but the people on the company took my maternity leave to stab me in the back. They made it as an excuse for collectively agreeing that an alpha should rule the company instead of an omega who just gave birth to a son and was in a very weak condition." She is raging and Dunk doesn't know how to reply to her words.

Maybe because he is an omega himself, he starts to understand her point of view even though he still despises her view of seeing her son. Joong suffered so much because of her ego. But it's true, it's not easy to live on this world as an omega.

Dunk isn't even sure if he needs to be thankful or not of his condition. He remembered the moment he had his first heat and how much he begged Joong not to take his virginity. He is sure that it was what his human side wanted, because his inner omega side just wanted him to be taken away by an alpha, especially when they are facing a controllable thing called heat. His omega friends have had a hard life from their teenage days because of that.

"So I decided to take again what was taken away from me, my company. "

And left Joong alone.

Dunk wants to say something like to defend Joong but he can't. As someone who has always been controlled by his own parents all his life, he knows the hatred someone can have when they start to feel controlled by other things. In Joong's mother's case, it was by their own self, her inner omega . Dunk can't really guarantee that he won't face the same feeling as Joong's mother in the future, because it's true... living as an omega is so hard. At the beginning, the reason why his parents gave Dao so much love compared to him was because Dao was born as an alpha, an oldest son alpha, and he is just an ordinary omega.

So he can sympathize with that statement.

But there is one question that lingers in his head when he hears Joong's mother's view about this.

"But mam, do you, your human side, is happy when you see your blood and flesh is growing up alone without you? You were abandoning him all this time." Dunk looks up again and sees her straight in the eyes.

She looks like she has the answer already but she stops to choose her own way of saying this. "I'm a bad mother, I know it. I don't even deserve to be called a mother by him. But I can't deny the fact that I'm happier when I work and achieve things that I can do with my own capability. I'm more happy when they call my name to be awarded as the most successful woman in the technology industries than to attend Joong's school graduation."

Dunk's heart hurts when he listens to this but he can't really say anything. As if she can read Dunk's mind, Joong's mother asks him one final question that has never been asked to Dunk before.

The question that makes him wonder alone in his and Joong's apartment while waiting for him to come back from his own house.

"If one day my alpha son makes you get pregnant, do you, your human side , really want it?"

When they did that, when Joong planted his seeds inside him, it's not really Joong and Dunk's decision to do it. It was their second gender, it was their inner alpha and inner omega. Dunk was sure that his inner omega really loved what they were doing. But after the conversation with Joong's mother, he really thinks about it a lot.

Does he really want to bear Joong's children some day?

He touches his belly and the panic starts soaring inside him.

There is no doubt of his love for Joong, it isn't because his inner omega is loving Joong's inner alpha, but Dunk as a human also loves Joong so much. But, having a child is way deeper than that. He doesn't want to give birth to Joong's children when they are in this hard situation with their past still haunting them here and there. He also doesn't want to give birth to Joong's children when he isn't sure that he as a human really wants that or not, because he is afraid ... He is so afraid that he might abandon his children like what Joong's mother did to Joong.

He doesn't want his children to be like his father.

He doesn't have an answer to Joong's mother's question but he is pretty sure about something; right now, he isn't ready to have something growing inside him.

He looks up to the evening sky and closes his eyes, trying to feel the warm air that hits his face. This is so calming, he just hopes it's not the calm before the storm. Should he call Joong? What if his mother murder him in his house?

Before he opens his eyes and searches for his phone (which Joong bought right away after they go back to this country), he feels a grip on his waist and someone just lays his chin on his shoulder, Joong is back. He is very much alive, Dunk smiles, feeling the wave of relieveness wash over him.

"How was it?" Dunk asks softly while touching Joong's hands on his belly. He tries to shake off the uneasy feelings he got from his conversation with Joong's mother. Joong can sense his feelings now. "My mother didn't try to kill you, right?"

Joong feels so light right now and Dunk is wondering, what happened?

"You can go back home tomorrow, your mother is waiting for you."

Huh?

"I won't let you know, you need to hear that from your mother by yourself. Maybe it's something that you wait for so long." Joong kisses his neck for a second then totally detaches himself from Dunk. They are on the balcony once again, this time in Joong's (their) apartment balcony.

"For real? I'm afraid I can't see you for another month if I go back to my house." Dunk isn't really sure about this but the feeling he gets from Joong is very light and peaceful, as if Joong wasn't meeting with the most dangerous people in their life.

Joong only nods and smiles brightly. "Believe me, my conversation with your mother ended well."

"I can't believe it, but your feelings right now tell me that you aren't lying."

"I'm not lying." Joong laughs while resting his hands on Dunk's waist again. His face becomes serious this time.

"What did my mom tell you? You are worrying about something right now."

Ouch.

Dunk can't really fake his feelings, Joong can still sense that.

"She told me something you already know." Dunk says at the end without really giving too much detail. He can't talk about the question in his head right now because he is afraid he will hurt Joong if he says that he contemplates if he really wants to have his children or not.

"About her not loving me that much and I'm her unwanted kid?" Joong says those hurtful things nonchalantly makes Dunk frowns at his word. "I'm used to it, now I fully accept it."

"You didn't deserve that, Joong."

"I know." Joong closes their gap and takes Dunk's body in his embrace. He closes his eyes, feels so happy and grateful that he can go back to his omega again. He was so afraid that something would be on their way again after meeting with Dunk's mother, he even braced himself if she would do something just to separate him and Dunk once again. But he is just glad everything turned in a very unexpected way.

Maybe Dao tells God in heaven to help us to change Dunk's mother heart, maybe God thinks that our suffering is already too much and finally showing us the way out.

"Having you is enough, having you by my side is greater than having those people who don't want my existence." Joong closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, smelling his pheromone and Dunk's pheromone has already become one.

"I'm so glad to have you in my life, Dunk. It was the greatest present I have ever received."

Dunk smiles. Despite the question on his mind right now about what he really wants and what his inner omega wants, one thing is sure, whatever Joong feels for him right now, he feels that way too.

The feelings are mutual.

Joong looks at Dunk's beautiful eyes, then goes below to his reddened cheeks, and ends up at his healthy and plump lips. The lips he desires so much, everytime they kiss, he always ends up wanting it more like he never can be satisfied with kissing Dunk in his life. It feels greater every single time. That's so crazy.

Joong reaches for Dunk's neck and almost kisses him, but he stops right away when there is only an inch away between their lips. He can already feel his heavy breath on his face right now. It drives him crazy.

But he can't kiss him.

If he kisses Dunk, they will end up in bed again.

Tomorrow morning, he needs to bring Dunk to her mother as they were promising before. He can't make her son walk limping and covered himself up in a turtleneck in this weather. They haven't met for so long, Dunk must come back in a very great condition. He needs to restrain himself, this is for Dunk's sake.

So he directs his kiss to his forehead and kisses that area softly.

Dunk is definitely taken back with Joong's gesture and then he asks it with his eyes.

"Later, you talk with your mother first."

Joong smiles and walks inside towards the bathroom. "I'm going to take a shower. Don't follow me."

Then he disappears into the room leaving Dunk alone blushing while touching his forehead.

Joong can be this sweet, he just remembers it by now.

***

When Joong drove him to his own house and left him alone, Dunk felt the urge to run away from his mother once again. He almost did that though, he is so afraid of his mother, he feels like he can't breathe properly. But something unexpected happened.

His mother is waiting for him at their front door. She doesn't use any make up today, that's strange. When she notices Dunk walks to her direction, she lowers her head.

What did Joong say to her that made her mother look so defeated like this?

Dunk suddenly afraid.

When he stands up so close to her, Dunk is shaking on his feet. This is so unusual and he is so damn afraid if his mother's rage is reaching a point it has never been before. His mother looks up and sees his neck where Joong's bitten marks are placed. Dunk is preparing himself to receive another slap on his cheeks.

He closes his eyes and is ready for the pain, but nothing...

Instead of slaps, he feels his mother's hand on his back.

Dunk opens his eyes and sees his mother is crying while hugging him.

She isn't the typical woman who likes to show her emotion (other than raging emotion) to others. This is very unusual of her. Dunk suddenly worries.

"Mother, are you okay?"

He asks but his mother doesn't reply, she cries his heart out on his son's hold. It feels like she was receiving the information of Dao's death once again. She cried uncontrollably. Dunk feels bad for his mother, so he taps on her back, trying to calm her. Is she this mad until she cries out loud?

Dunk suddenly feels sorry.

He knows he hurted his mother again by choosing to be with Joong, but he can't help it. It's their fate to be together, he can't go against the fate. He once tried it and failed miserably.

"I'm sorry, I hurt you again. I'm sorry." Dunk suddenly feels the urge to cry because of the sight of his mother's crying. This is so rare, something big must have happened yesterday.

"I'm sorry, Dunk... I'm sorry, my son."

It feels like Dunk's world suddenly stops spinning on his orbit, it feels like the chains that always bound him to the ground and suffocate him are suddenly gone and he finally can breathe. He never once heard his mother say sorry to him. Not in his wildest dream he hopes for this.

Joong, what were you talking to her yesterday until you can successfully knock down the high walls his mother built up for so long?

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry you need to be born as a son to a very bad mother like me."

Dunk's heart feels the pain when he hears those words, and he isn't sure what caused it. Is it because finally his mother sees him as his son ? Or because he feels like he is getting something that Joong still hasn't got until this day.

***

Two months passed after what happened in Germany.

A good progress was happening in Boonprasert's family. Nothing much in the Aydin's family.

Dunk's mother finally realized what she did wrong all this time and she stopped controlling everything in Dunk's life. She let her son have his freedom and to pursue his own happiness, his husband supporting it all the way because all this time it was his mother's obsession to always have her way in Dunk's life. She let Dunk live together with Joong and Dunk was crying all night long in Joong's embrace that day because it felt like his mother finally gave them her blessings.

Joong knew that sometimes there was a slight hurtful feeling in her eyes whenever she looked at her son being together with Joong. She still remembered Dao, and Joong couldn't do anything about it. Because her feeling was also valid, Dao will be forever her son, and what happened to them was too painful to be erased this quickly.

It can't be erased, they are just trying to live with it without giving any more pain to the one who is still living. They are all still learning, and it's enough.

Dunk was spending more time with her mother before she flew back to Paris. They had the same taste in art. It would be nice if they reconciled a little bit faster, because Dunk could finally tell her that he loved to paint. While his mother is good at designing fashion, Dunk is good at painting scenery. Joong smiles brightly when one day he found them painting together in their house.

It felt like the old time when Joong oftenly visited the Boonprasert's family house. He is well accepted now, like he used to.

Everything went back to its place.

Joong and Dunk become together without anything going against them. Pond and Phuwin are still their friends, whom they often used to hang out with. They have become each other's safe place. They four also become a very famous couple in their university.

Oh, forgot to tell you, Dunk is back to Joong's university and enrolled for his magister there. He still chose engineering as his master degree, but this time he chose it for himself, he said that he wanted to help in his father's company once he graduated from the magister program. Of course his parents really love to hear that.

Everything went peacefully.

Joong and Dunk both were still bearing the guilt of Dao's death but right now they aren't alone in remembering Dao.

Every Saturday morning, the first thing they did was to go to Dao's memorandum building where his ashes were placed there. They will pray for Dunk's brother and Joong's friend together and tell their story to Dao. They wanted him to always be in their life.

"Older brother, thank you for everything. There weren't enough words to tell you how I'm so grateful and sorry for you. Everytime i breathe, I always remember you were the reason behind it. I will live well and always remember you in my heart. You will always live within us, brother." Dunk said while looking up to his brother's portrait.

"Phi, thank you for giving me a chance to live together with your little brother. As you said to me in that dark basement; you want your little brother to be with me and you want me to take care of him as long as I'm breathing. I promise you, Phi, I will always love and take care of him, all my life."

That day, Dunk was learning that Joong already remembered his past by himself because of what he said. The promise he made with Dao wasn't there in his memories.

In their place, Joong said that he was searching for his memories inside him and got it when he met his inner alpha. The one who kept his forgotten memories all this time. Dunk was wondering, how can he meet with his inner alpha? Can Dunk also do something like that? He needed to ask Joong for it.

Before he asked that, there was something more important to do. Dunk wanted to see Joong's memories, so Joong opened his memories to his soulmate and it was another magical moment when every feeling and every thought in their past was interlinked once again. It felt like Halensee lake once again but this time it's Dunk's turn to learn how deep Joong's feeling for him.

They were meant to be together.

It was what he learned after seeing Joong's memories.

Dunk couldn't help himself but kissed the man he loves so much, the kiss that was deep and soft at the beginning but ended up becoming a passionate and rough one when they reached the bed. Dunk was stripping his clothes when Joong asked him a question.

"Can I do it without a condom this time? I miss you. "

Joong didn't really understand why Dunk always insisted they must have sex with condoms after they got back to this country. He was fine with it though, but sometimes he missed the raw feeling whenever they did it skin to skin. If Dunk is okay with that, Joong won't ever use any condoms whenever they do this, because the feeling of having sex without condom is crazy amazing. But his pretty boyfriend seems not to fully agree with them having sex without using condoms.

He wondered why.

Dunk was grabbing Joong's neck to kiss him again from beneath and whispering to his ears while biting his ears, a revenge for what his boyfriend did to him on his friend's homestay in Germany. "Next time."

Joong's mind was too cloudy to think anymore and just did whatever his boyfriend wanted him to do. And Dunk used this moment to think about his question again. All this time he needed to be careful whenever he wanted to think about this in front of Joong because he could feel his uneasy feelings. But right now, Joong couldn't even think straight, so he used this chance to wonder once again.

Did he already have his answer to the question that was asked by Joong's mother?

Does he really want to have Joong's children?

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Joong is out for a three days two nights trip with his faculty and Dunk is sick.

Dunk wakes up alone this morning with the feeling of wanting to vomit all of his inside towards the nearest bathroom. He feels so nauseous and everything burns in his skin. To make it more miserable, his head hurts. He remembers the date and sure that his heat period is still pretty far, so it must be his regular sickness . He sometimes forgets that he is someone who easily gets sick whenever he is with Joong. There is something about his pheromone and his presence that can make Dunk feel healthy all the time, and now Joong is leaving him for awhile he feels sick immediately.

Damn it.

He feels so sick and he can't call Joong, because that man can go back to Bangkok from Chiangmai just from hearing that his boyfriend is sick. Dunk doesn't want to ruin his plan, so he calls Phuwin instead. His best friend.

"Wow you look so pale, friend." Is what Phuwin says to him when he enters their place. Phuwin holds something in his hand that is supposed to be food, when Dunk senses the food smell he can't help but feel like vomiting once again.

They end up in the bathroom with Phuwin tapping slowly on his back. " We need to call Joong, you are so sick."

Dunk shakes his head hard. "No, don't bother him. It's my usual sickness, we need to go to the hospital and search for my doctor, Doctor Tong."

Phuwin looks like he wants to disagree with that idea but Dunk's desperate (and sick) eyes are begging him to just do what he said, so Phuwin sighs at the end while nodding.

One hour later, they are waiting for Doctor Tong's to talk about Dunk's sickness in his room. But the doctor doesn't say anything and only looks at the paper in front of him in a very serious manner. Five more minutes, he still remains silent until Dunk asks him impatiently.

"What is it, Doc?"

Doctor Tong finally looks Dunk in the eyes and smiles slightly, a knowing smile. Dunk feels so anxious by the way he looks at him. Instead of saying anything, he gives something to Dunk that makes Phuwin gasp in his sides.

A pregnancy test kit.

No way.

"I have my idea, but let us make it sure one more time. Come back to me when you are finished using this, you know how to use this and read the result right?"

It moves so fast in front of him, his mind is barely there all the time.

Dunk takes the pregnancy test kit that doctor Tong gave to him, he goes to the patient's bathroom and uses that damn tool.

He waits anxiously for the result, ten minutes of waiting it shows him what happened to his body feels like a ten years.

When it finally shows him the result.

Dunk's mind really goes blank.

Two stripes.

He is pregnant with Joong's child.

To be continued

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This is my surprise update! How is the new chapter? This is the longest chapter of Deep and Abiding, more than 7k words hahaha i wrote this in one go. Hope it doesn't turn bad...

The story is finally walking to its climax part!! I'm so excited to write for the next chapter but sadly it's the beginning of the month again and i will be busy with work, so i decided to make this chapter fast and posted it right away.

There will no update until next week, i think. not sure either when i can write again, hope this chapter can compensate that.

See you again my dear readers, hope you all liking this chapter. Thank you for all the hits/views, comments, likes, kuddos for this story. It means a lot for me!!

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