-nineteen

twenty

twenty on-

"She's there," Levi murmured into my ear, his embrace tightening.

twenty two

"I assumed," I muttered, fidgeting slightly.

twenty three

twenty four

twenty five

"Hold still-"

twenty six

"A little difficult don't you think?"

twenty seven

"You're going to do something inappropriate-"

twenty eight

"You were literally begging me to strip in front of you this morning- this is hardly inappropriate."

twenty nine

Levi remained silent, the only indication that he was still alive was the tight embrace I found myself in and the feeling of his breath on my neck.

thirty

"I can't believe we're doing this it's repul-"

thirty one

"Oh thank fuck," Levi pushed me away, causing me to stumble backwards into a table, the warmth of the hug quickly receding.

WHAT THE FUCK

"What's wrong with you-" I scowled over at him.

that hurt

"Isabel showed up, it's not like you had any better ideas," Levi sighed loudly, reaching for a napkin.

ouch

"It's your body, don't act so disgusted," I frowned.

i shower and everything- i'm not sure if that can be said about him

"Were you in to that?" Levi gasped in horror, taking a few steps back from me.

"Fuck no- those were the worst thirty one seconds of my life, but you don't need to make it seem like I'm some disgusting thing."

i'm not diseased

"What's wrong with you?" Levi scoffed at me, "I thought we agreed."

"Just because we agreed on a few things doesn't mean I have to like you- but of course you're the kind of egocentric asshole who would think something like that."

sorry i won't bend to your will like everyone else

i'm not your dog

i don't have to like you

i don't like you

i don't

"What?" His voice raised slightly, I avoided meeting his gaze.

"I mean it, you expect everyone around you to bow down- and I'm not going to have any of it." I stood up abruptly, pushing the chair back. "I know that's why you don't like me, but you don't have to treat me like I'm repulsive."

"You hate me," Levi shot back, his voice which was normally cool and level shook slightly, "don't act like a fucking saint, you do the same to me."

"It's different."

"You make no fucking sense," he sighed, angrily standing up to come to my side, "listen to yourself."

"It's different, you don't care what I say."

i do

i care

fuck you

"How would you know anything about me-"

"I don't want to hear anything else from you- you don't actually understand me," I turned on my heel, running deeper into the greenhouse, as far away from Levi as I could possibly get.

he infuriates me

I found myself sitting against the back wall of the greenhouse, hidden between two large flowering bushes.

this is pathetic

why do i even care whether or not levi ackerman is repulsed by me

it's never mattered in the past- there's no use throwing a fit over it now

I pulled a large pink flower off of the bush, holding it in front of me, my frown deepening.

but i'm upset

i should throw a fit- i'm well within my right to

then you'll have to explain why

i'm upset because he acted like i was disgusting

that has never bothered you in the past

oh shut the fuck up

this is stupid

"I don't owe him a single explanation for anything, I can do whatever I want to do," I muttered out loud.

just when he was getting slightly tolerable he ruined it

i-

i was starting to have fun

"That's horrible," I sighed involuntarily, squeezing my eyes shut.

"What is?"

"WHAT THE FUCK," I shot up, slamming my forehead into someone else.

"Ow- that hurt," Farlan stood inches in front of me clutching his face. "What's so horrible?"

"What do you think," I frowned at him, "that hurt."

"You're exactly the same aren't you?" Farlan muttered to himself, before sitting down in front of me. "He did something, didn't he?"

"Did he tell you?" I narrowed my eyes at him, "whatever he said it's a lie."

"He didn't tell me anything," Farlan paused, staring at the flower in my hands, "would you care to explain? I was sent out here to 'pick flowers' but I'm assuming that was an excuse to find you."

"That doesn't sound like Levi at all."

"Alright, if you say so," he shrugged, waiting expectantly for my explanation.

"It's a long story-" I hesitated. "He wiped his hands off after touching me- like I was that repulsive."

but i guess that's not really why i'm upset now

"I don't understand why I'm so upset about that- it's not like I haven't done worse," I muttered. "I mean it's such a stupid thing to be upset about, he said it himself- it's not like I even like him so there's really no reason to be this frustrated."

"I thought you were starting to get along," Farlan mused quietly to himself.

me too

"Weirdly I also thought that, but I guess I was just seeing things."

"Can I tell you the truth?"

"About Levi? I don't want to hear it- I'm not in the mood to see him redeemed."

"No- about you."

"Oh?" I moved closer to Farlan, covering his hand with mine, "have you come here to confess your undying love to me?"

"Not that," he sighed, brushing me away.

im almost hurt

"That's a shame, I would've said no but insisted to keep you by my side as a member of my staff."

"I would've declined."

"You're breaking my heart!" I gasped loudly clutching my chest, "can we move on from the truth now? I'm worried that I'll get sick if I hear it."

"You already know the truth don't you?"

"Life is easier when nothing changes, I should just play dumb."

"Y/N-"

"Yes Farlan?"

"You're upset because you've gotten closer to him."

"Please don't say it."

"You don't totally hate him do you?"

i think you're right and i don't know how to feel about that

"I'm going to faint."

what happens if i want to be friends with him-

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i love my two idiots who have -5 emotional intelligence when it comes to each other

- ami