"Historia and Ymir will be waiting for us in the capital," I had moved to sit next to Levi, leaning against his shoulder as we continued on our journey.

this is nice

"Historia-" Levi paused, thinking, "the daughter of Count Reiss?"

that's right

"But more importantly my friend- her and her guard- we've been close since we were little."

"I know that."

"Oh right- because of our blood feud you know everything about me."

except for some reason- all of the important humanizing parts of me

"No-" Levi shook his head, "I know about the daughter of Count Reiss because of the engagement."

what

"Engagement?"

"I thought you knew everything about me?" Levi teased, "our families discussed an engagement when we were younger."

WHAT

"AND HISTORIA DIDN'T TELL ME?"

"I'm shocked you didn't know," he shook his head at me, "you're losing your touch Y/N."

"Sue me for believing that my closest friend would never betray me," I gasped, pressing a hand to my heart, "oh god I feel faint."

"That was a long time ago- that shitty proposal would have never happened anyway."

WELL OBVIOUSLY

"I mean yeah- she's lesbian- and practically inseparable from her girlfriend."

to be honest

you wouldn't have stood a chance

not in a million years

also

she hates you

WAIT-

things are beginning to make sense

"That explains how awful her guard is."

well that may also be my fault

"Doesn't exactly help that I've been shittalking you to her for the majority of my life," I muttered under my breath, "it finally makes sense."

"What?"

"All this time I thought that she didn't like you because she and I saw the truth-"

and now..

"The truth?" He scoffed, "that's bullshit."

eh...

"You have to admit it- you just aren't that likable."

i'm fully of the opinion that a good half of your admirers would hate you if they actually spoke to you for longer than five seconds

"What does that say about you?"

"Me? I'm a very charitable nice young lady," I shrugged, "in a great display of goodwill I have decided to accept your confession."

"Really? The way I remember it you confessed to me-"

"There must be something wrong with your head," I shook my head at him, unable to hide the grin overtaking my features, "we should really get you checked out."

let's pretend that didn't happen

it's incredibly embarrassing

bad for my reputation

"What were you saying about Historia?"

"It's Lady Reiss to you," I shook my head at him. "I think the only reason why she was on my side- the correct side- is because you turned down her engagement."

hmm but-

that doesn't totally make sense

i mean- she's liked ymir- or rather- ymir has liked her since we were seven

"I didn't turn her down."

"You-"

"She turned me down."

oh

"I can't believe it," I gasped loudly, covering my mouth with a hand, "you- you were going to accept another woman's proposal?"

IM WOUNDED

"We hated each other."

"That was definitely your fault- I'm exceedingly kind and well mannered."

"You're impossible."

"Don't you like it?"

"Shut up."

"You don't actually mean that."

"You decide."

"You don't."

"Ok."

"God you're annoying."

"You like that."

"I do," I shrugged, "see? Wasn't hard."

"You're impossible."

"I'll ignore it just this once," I sighed. "This conversation has completely changed my world."

what do you MEAN historia was engaged to a man

i'm having a hard time even imagining her next to one

imagine a world in which ymir dies in a strange way that feels very avoidable and then historia gets pregnant (from a man) and lives on a farm and we're all supposed to believe that she's happy

what the fuck are you talking about

twisted hell world

"It's not like anything happened because of it," Levi shrugged, "we hadn't even spoken."

i KNOW BUT

"Around what age did this happen?"

"I don't know-" he muttered, "around the time we first met?"

oh no

"I see."

"There's something you aren't saying."

"What? No-" I shook my head, pulling away from him slightly- "never."

"You're a shit liar."

"I don't lie, Levi, I don't even know how."

"Liar."

"Your world will change forever in an incredibly negative way if I tell you the truth."

"It can't be that bad."

"It is."

my best kept secret

"You're making it sound worse than it is, just say it."

i CANT

"Ask Historia- I don't want to say it myself."

"I am not going to ask Historia."

that's probably a good idea

"You're right- she might try to poison you or something."

she's a good friend

she wouldn't spill my secrets to easily

ymir on the other hand-

she definitely would

maybe not to levi but

"Poison?"

"When I visited her in your body she attempted to feed me laxatives."

"What the fuck."

"But she's really nice! A good friend- she was looking out for me when I did that."

she definitely thought i got kidnapped or something

i mean-

if you think about it i did

"Are you really not going to tell me?"

"No- I can't-" I met his gaze, "you'll tease me forever and I'll feel like a total idiot."

"That won't happen."

"It will," I grumbled, "and if it doesn't happen you're just going to feel like a piece of shit."

which you would deserve to

you know-

for all the years of torment

and all the years to come

im sure

"Just spit it out."

"No-"

"I'll-" he hesitated, "do something in exchange?"

oh?

"Anything?"

"Anything."

"In that case," I sighed, gagging slightly as I thought about the thing I was about to admit.

"Yes?"

"I had a huge crush on you when we were younger- that's probably why Historia turned you down- because I thought I liked you."

"What the fuck-" a burst of laughter tore out of Levi.

"SEE? I TOLD YOU IT WOULD BE LIKE THIS- I'M NEVER TALKING ABOUT THIS EVER AGAIN."

"That's embarrassing."

"I KNOW IT IS."

"Is that what you're into? Bullying?"

"SO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE A BULLY?"

"Absolutely not."

"And no I am NOT into that- I was a kid I didn't know any better."

i didn't have a brain

"You're ridiculous."

"This is so stupid I never should have told you that," I grumbled, "forget it ever happened- immediately."

"I can't."

"I'm going to force you to do something awful."

"You're impossible."

"I know I am- don't you like that?"

"Yeah, I do."

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a bit of a silly chapter <3

- ami