((🎧 Tilly Birds - I'm Not Boring, Youre Just Bored))

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First and Khaotung first knew each other five years ago. And for all those times, a word 'Friends' is what defined the tie between them.

Yes. A friend. The close one. Or some might also said soulmate. Never did First want to cross this line called 'friend', not even once. Or so he thought.

They spend more time with each other, whether just to eat out, play games, or randomly talks to each other. Just like what those normal friends would do.

But something cant remain the same forever. The flow of time does have effect on possibly anything in the world. And yes, that was what have troubling First this time around. Because he was one of those who were affected by it.

He understand, he really does. He shouldnt have but who he was to even stop this. His heart is his own boss, the unstoppable one.

Friends shouldnt catch feelings. Well the truth is, he does. Catching feeling for his own close friend, and also his partner namely Khaotung.

In the past, everytime they spent time together, there would always be voices in his head telling him how cute Khaotung is, how pretty his squinted eyes were when he smiles and so on.

While couldnt understand how that kind of thoughts even came to exist in his mind, he usually would just brushed it off. However, deep down he cant help but agreed to it.

Well, thats not wrong though, he thought everytime.

He doesnt understand himself, for the past five years. Maybe because he have little to no experience, or he was way too innocent at such matter.

It was until they filmed their very first kiss for their also first series' pilot trailer, The Eclipse, that he realized something. Its like someone finally put some sense into his head.

The kiss truly enlightened First. So, he liked his friend, his bestest friend at that.

For quite sometimes, he felt terrible. Like he was the worse for having this kind of feeling towards a friend.

A month before they officially started to film the series, he seriously contemplating what he should be doing. Should he stop? But how to do that? He have no idea.

He grabbed a cigarette from under his vanity and a lighter before he left to his balcony. The cold night wind of Bangkok and a cigarette is what he needed.

While leaning his back forward to the railing, he put the thin cigarette in between his lips and quickly lit a fire, slightly burned its brim.

Smokes coming out of his mouth as he stares at the dark sky, Khaotung's face come to his mind. Making him cursed "fuck" several times.

The smiley and soft First that everyone know is no longer there. Only the troubled, broken First was, standing alone through cold night of Bangkok.

And as for his mind, it was in a hurricane. A terrible one.

***

Their series "The Eclipse" was a huge success, made them taking a leap in their career. Gaining more fans in the process.

With that also comes opportunity.

First and Khaotung was elated when they received the news from their manager, P'Somsom. Both were casted for P'Jojo's new series, titled Only Friends.

After reading the script, both were intrigued as it was a contrast compared with their last series, making them excited about the challenge they're going to face later on.

First talked to Khaotung about how happy he was to be casted in the same series as Khaotung again. He became his usual self, the chatterbox First that everybody familiar with.

While Khaotung listen attentively most of the time, or smile while made comments here an there.

Just like what they usually does. But First felt different. He realized, how he had fallen way too deep than he anticipated.

A surge of guilt in his heart made him frowned, which was quickly noticed by Khaotung who immediately asked him.

"Why? Why are you frowning, Ai First?"

Soon the frown dissappeared, replaced by what other's said as a perfect smile. First's ultimate cover.

"Nothing, Ai Tung. Just dont mind it." First said. What else could he said if not that anyway.

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Their agency would held an annual event to showcase their upcoming project for next year. And their series would be one among many to be showcased, and thus they began the filming for its pilot trailer this week.

All the main cast were Force, Book who will be playing as Top and Mew. Neo, Mark as Boston and Nick. Khao's role was named Ray, while himself as San.

To sum things, His character, Sun and Khao's Ray are said to be friends with benefit.

When he think about it, he laughed. Its the word 'friend' that made First amused. Fuck with this word -he thought.

***

First sat on a stool at a bar, wearing his leather black jacket. The light above him, makes the jacket slightly gleamed. He looks stunning while he raised a glass of booze in his hand.

Beside him was Khaotung, with a green jacket, his eyes was on First.

"If you want us to be friends, stay friends. No sex." Said First as he slowly turned his head facing Khaotung.

"But some people start being friends after having sex." Confronted Khao confidently. There's a little smirk on his thin lips as he said his words.

For goddamn sake, all First could think of is how seductive Khao looks like right at that moment.

Both went into silent. First was contemplating, while Khao was definitely waiting. Their eyes were locked onto each other with intensity around them, makes them hard to breath a bit.

However in no time, the distance between them getting closer and closer until it came to zero.

Their lips met and thats happen, a heated kiss, between two alleged 'friend' whose not only kiss but also happened to exchange saliva in the process. Basically eating each other.

Khaotung's hand slowly went to First's back. But before long, the director shouted "Cut!" And it burst the bubble both actors was in. First and Khaotung finally comes back to reality.

First sheepishly smiles after, he didnt know what to do for real. It felt nice yet awkward at the same time.

Nice to tasted Khao's lips, but awkward for him to have such thought about his best friend.

While he was on it, he saw how Khao moved away from him, his body shudders from the kiss.

"It extremely tickles, Ai First!" Said Khaotung. And First could only respond with that smile from earlier. He too, still need some time to process what just happened.

***

The filming process continued. This time it was scenes where Ray, played by Khaotung and Mew, played by Book have a some kind of deeptalk on a bed.

The other actors was on the side, and First of course was there. He wanted to witness every process, for learning purpose.

But he didnt know this acts in front of him could affects him this much.

He know he have fallen too deep. But he didnt know he could have this kind of feeling seeing this simple things.

He got worked up upon seeing Khao and Book interacted on that bad, how Khao looked at Book. He know this was all just an act, he know too damn well.

Yet he was so angry. How unprofessional of him to be like this, he thought to himself.

As soon as the director said 'cut', First rushed to leave the narrow room, passing through bunch of staffs and equipments that were scattered around the room.

He walked out onto a narrow corridor and directly went into a restroom at the end of the corridor. There were no one around. The production team have rented this entire floor to shoot.

First took out a box of cigarette and a lighter from his pocket, it was one of property used for filming earlier. From that box, he got himself one cigarette before putting the rest back into his pocket.

He lit the cigarette on his lips, and started to smoke. This was his only solution for the anger he have right now.

But then, someone opened the door to the restroom and it was Khaotung. Their eyes met. First saw a crease on Khao's forehead.

The shorter approached First, snatching the cigarette in his mouth before throwing it to the floor and step on it hard.

"Why are you smoking here, First? I thought you quit a long time ago?" Asked Khaotung. But First didnt say anything, utterly ignoring Khao. He fished out another stick of cigarette, which again getting snatched by Khao.

First frowned.

"Whats wrong with you? Leave me alone can you?" He said, or more like yellling to Khao. Getting yelled at makes Khao's blood boiling. So, he snapped back.

"What do you say? I should be the one asking that, Ai First. Whats wrong with you? I was asking you out of worry as a friend."

When the word 'friend' being brought out, First pulled his own hair in frustration. And exclaimed "Fuck!".

Which makes Khao widened his eyes in disbelief.

"Honestly, whats wrong with you? If you have something bothering you in mind, you should just tell me. We are frie-"

Khaotung didnt manage to finish his sentence when he felt First's hands cupping his face, followed by an unexpected kiss.

The kiss only lasted for a short time before First pulled his hands back.

"I know. I know for a fact that we're friends. You dont have to remind me, Tung. Fuck." Said First before leaving the stunned Khaotung alone.

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-FIN????-

I watched Only Friends pilot trailer too much 😭😭😭😭 and this song got stuck in my head. I cant consentrate at work everytime i listen to this, geez. And then this story came up. Should i continue this or leave it as is??