hi i'm back from crying bc of y'all on my note. thanks for all the encouragement, it really made me feel better. <3 idk how to thank you guys enough

i was so far and ready to accept that i'll lose the lot of you, so i'm happy most of you understood 💕

also i wrote this on 3am pls save me

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jungkook's pov

"and why don't you see that i'm not leaving you for the same reason?"

jimin shook his head and chuckled bitterly at my attempt in convincing him to stay. he then stood up from the bed, walking away from me. but i wasn't going to let him.

not again.

i grabbed his wrist and pinned him down. his head along with his back and his ass hit the floor with a thud.

alluring and glazed, brown eyes stared into my own. before he could even ask what i was doing, i slammed my lips into his, feeling mine melt due to the plumpness and softness of his own.

i can't get enough of it. even when he squirmed under me and tried to get away from my hold. but i easily kept him pinned down by holding both his wrists. this is wrong.

i don't know what came over me. i just couldn't control myself anymore. i bit his lower lip, earning a moan from him that made my dick twitch in my tight ass pants. but this is not enough.

i spread his legs using my own and he acceded without even putting up a fight. i put one of mine in the middle of his and ground on his crotch, making him gasp. i used this chance to slip my tongue inside his mouth, savouring every bit of park jimin. i can't believe i'm doing this. i don't want this to be a dream again. i don't wanna wake up to a nightmare without him beside me again.

his lips, his tongue, his breath, his everything felt so perfect on mine. it may be weird for anyone else but the fact that park jimin was sharing saliva and air with me was indeed such a huge turn-on. i've always looked at him as some kind of god or something i'm too thirsty for but still afraid to touch. and that's funny, because i know he's not a god or a king, yes, i love him just the way he is. the park jimin that's just like any other normal high school boy. but that's the thing, he still isn't 'normal' for me.

i was on the verge of turning back and letting him go, not wanting to force him more than i already have. but he kissed me back, pulling me closer to him by clutching on my shirt and pulling my hair with his other hand.

"oh fuck," i groaned once i pulled away to have us catch our breath. i was losing it.

staring at his moonlike crescents and his ravishing smile, i felt like i was losing myself, completely and deeply in love with him, tremendously enthralled by the transcendent art that is park jimin.

"i love you," i said. please say you love me too.

"i know," he settled with, the smile slowly leaving his face. "and i don't understand why."

"have i not been cleared enough?" raising my eyebrow at him, i chuckled. "i love you, jimin and that's all that matters. i can't give any less fucks about what you've done. all i want to do is kiss all your mistakes and bad decisions, embrace your lies, and worship your imperfections."

"jungkook, you don't know what you're doing to me." he gave me a sad smile as if he was about to cry.

"yes, i do."

"no, yㅡ" i kissed him again before he could even say anything then pulled away to say, "you love me, too."

"jungㅡahh..." he let those sweet sounds come out of his mouth yet again as soon as i trailed kisses down his neck.

"i'll fuck you like you fucked with my heart."

he looked taken aback and slightly terrified at first, but then he smirked.

"are we really gonna do it on the floor, baby?" he asked, pouting his oh-so-fucking-plump lips because he knew damn well how much i love them.

"oh, look who's suddenly eager to do it," i laughed. "you literally kept pushing me away just a few seconds ago."

but my laughter came to a stop when he said, "shut up before i change my mind."

"fuck, that's hot." i literally swept him off his feet, walking towards taehyung's bed.

gently resting jimin on the sheets, i kissed him again, only for him to bite my lower lip. i couldn't help but groan because of it, and my dick couldn't keep from twitching either. i pulled away from the kiss to take my shirt off and caught a glimpse of the smirk on his face. but that smirk immediately vanished as soon as i successfully removed my shirt. his eyes trailed down my abs, unconsciously licking his own lips.

i chuckled at his reaction, causing him to look back at me in the eye and pout. then i kissed him once again, never getting enough of the taste of his mouth.

as our lips connected, i felt his fingers trail down my shorts, swiftly pulling it down along with my underwear. when they fell on the floor, i immediately moved my legs to get out of them and kicked them away with my feet to god-knows-where.

i pulled away from the kiss and brushed the messy strands of hair away from his face. then i gave him a peck on the forehead, the nose, both cheeks, the jaws and the chin until i reached his neck to lick his adam's apple and suck on it.

"ahh...kookie..." he grabbed a fistful of my hair and pulled on it, grinding his clothed dick with my bared one. but i wasn't gonna let him stay like that forever, evidently.

i hastily removed his shirt off and stepped down again on the floor to pull down his pants along with his underwear. it hadn't even been two seconds since i threw his clothes away somewhere in the room when he already grabbed me by the nape to kiss me. though it was a swift kiss, it was goddamn sloppy, causing a small string of saliva to connect us for a few seconds once he pulled away.

i went back to straddle him on the bed, holding his dick and pumping it. i couldn't help but admire the way his eyes filled with lust stared back at me through his long eyelashes, the way his plump lips parted, how heavily he was breathing and how messy his hair was once again.

i didn't waste a second to go down on him. firstly kissing the head of his dick, before sticking out my tongue to run it through his slit. he grabbed onto the sheets, struggling to hold on to reality, as he arched his back and moaned my name.

i never knew my name could sound so fucking beautiful. the way it came out of his lips and the fact that he was so helpless underneath me, because of me and only for me...it almost made me lose my mind.

i licked the veins of his cock, savouring the taste of pre-cum spilling down to no end. then i took him whole in my mouth. he was already so big and hard, it made it difficult for me to breathe even though i was breathing through my nose. but i didn't stop until i felt the tip of his dick reach the back of my throat and my nose almost up to his pelvis.

"kookie..." he kept moaning as i bobbed my head up and down. i can't believe i have park jimin's dick in my mouth. oh, how many times have i dreamt of this? the taste of him, i feel like it'll haunt me for the rest of my days.

i stared up at him, his eyebrows furrowed and he moaned even louder when i did.

"kookie...fuck...ahhh...how can you look so innocent with a dick in your mouth?"

this made me suck even harder and faster. his gentle caress on my hair soon turned into desperate pulling. he arched his back once again, screaming my name until the sound of him buried itself in my ears. this is the kind of music i live for. no, this is the only music i live for.

"please...kookie, i c-can't wait...please just fuck me. or else i'm gonna cum in y-your mouthㅡah!" that's exactly what i want, jimin. the taste of you. more of it. more.

i pulled out with a pop, only to lick him from the middle of his balls all the way to the slit of the head of his dick and returned to taking him whole in my mouth. this did it for him and soon enough, he was spurting his cum in my mouth.

"k-kookie..." he moaned as he stared at me, swallowing all of his cum and licking his dick to savour every last bit of it.

i knew he was sensitive more than ever when he had just came, so i wanted to fuck him as soon as i could, wanted to make him cry and beg for my dick like the slut he is. but i couldn't hurt him. i'd never hurt the man i'm tremendously obsessed with.

i didn't want to stand up and lose the warmth of him even for a few seconds. so i intertwined our fingers and crawled on the bed towards taehyung's bedside table instead. on the very top drawer were boxes of condoms and a bottle of lube.

i grabbed a box of condoms and the lube. looking back at jimin, i noticed how uneasy he suddenly seemed.

"baby, i'm not gonna hurt you. i won't ever hurt you." i said, putting the box and bottle on the bed so i could give him a kiss on the forehead and lips with my hands cupping his face. "i'll go as slow as possible. if you can't take it, i'll immediately pull out."

"no, no, no. that's not it. i..."

"jiminie?"

"i can't help but think of the fact that taehyung has all of these and you...you live in the same house."

what?

"i mean...i'm not saying you guys have done something but it must be awkward to like...i don't know...hear each other do the same thing from the other side of the door."

i couldn't believe what i was hearing at first, but then i started laughing. who knew jimin would ever get jealous of my best friend for hearing and witnessing me masturbate?

"what the...are you laughing at me?"

"well, you're cuter than you've ever been right now, hyung."

"fuck no."

"says the one who kept squirming under me just seconds ago."

he hit me on the shoulder and pouted as he squinted his eyes in disbelief. then i pulled a condom out of the box, ripping the plastic off with my teeth. his annoyed expression drastically changed back to being filled with desire.

"would you like to do the honour?" i smirked, putting the condom in his hand.

"oh, i sure will." it was his turn to smirk, immediately holding my dick as he played with the slit of it with his small but soft fingers.

"ahhh...hyung...d-don't..."

he shushed me then gave me a swift kiss on the lips. i closed my eyes and grabbed the back of his neck to pull him back to me.

just when i was about to cum, he removed his hand and smirked, rolling the condom and coating my cock with it. he then licked and bit my ear, causing me to groan even louder. he pushed me back down on the bed and hovered over me.

"oh my god..." i hissed in realization of what he was about to do.

he grabbed the lube and coated his fingers with it. i was about to take the bottle from him so i could be the one fucking him with my fingers for prep, but he swatted my hands away.

"you don't get to touch..." he said, then put two fingers up his ass, moaning so fucking lewdly.

"ahh...kookie...kookie...j-jungkook...right there, ahh..." he moaned as if i was the one fucking him but i sure as hell wasn't.

"why do you torture me like this?" he chuckled at my question but soon enough closed his eyes again as he fucked himself right in front of me.

"jiminie-hyung...please..." he must've sensed the desperation in my voice because he soon pulled his fingers out and groaned loudly. then he positioned his ass right on top of my dick with his hands on my chest and his eyes on mine.

slowly, he went down. and i felt like crying for how good it felt to have park jimin's ass slowly eating my dick. i wouldn't mind dying after this. i surely have lived the best of my life.

he went slow at first, panting with eyebrows furrowed and his intense lust-filled gaze fixed on me. i couldn't help it anymore. i grabbed his ass and helped him up and down on my cock.

"ah! ah! ah! j-jungkook! ah!"

the way his dick bounced as he rode me, made me question my sense of reality. i wanted to fucking put that dick in my mouth again, but it also felt so good fucking him.

that wasn't an issue at all though for we knew so well time had no shit on us.

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if you can't park jimin, let him ride you instead

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if you liked this and smutty + angsty jikook are your thing, please check out my new story, "above the screams ➻ jikook"

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