I've never been more nervous in my life.

"Are you ok Y/N?" Hanji asked, knocking on the window of the carriage.

No, I think I'm going to suffocate the atmosphere in here is unbearable.

"I'm fine!" I beamed, pulling the embroidered curtains shut.

Ok Levi- please understand that I'm a curious person and right now I'm going to lose my mind if I don't figure out whether or not you're sleeping.

GOD THIS IS A BAD IDEA

Okok calm down-

"Are you sleeping?" I whispered leaning in closer to his face.

Ok no reaction.

"I'm sorry Levi," I hummed under my breath moving in even closer.

Wow imagine if he opened his eyes right now!

EMBARRASSING

Quite so.

"I'm going to poke your face- if you're fake sleeping just to embarrass me you should wake up now," I warned before gently nudging his cheek.

SOFT

"Whatever I give up if you're pretending you're doing a good job," I sighed, pushing myself away from his sleeping figure.

He's more attractive like this.

Ah yes . He's more attractive when he looks like a dead body .

omg u get me ...

"The Duke- could we speak?" A low masculine voice called out from behind the thick curtains.

I mean you *could* but he's sleeping.

"Sorry Farlan, I think he's resting," Hanji responded.

Farlan??? WHOS THAT???

"Resting? The Duke?" 'Farlan' responded.

"I know right? I didn't believe it either but he's been really quiet for a while," Hanji hummed happily to herself.

Does Levi not sleep?

He looks really comfortable right now- and he slept in my room the other day.

I guess maybe he looks a little pale.

I kinda figured that was because he was a vampire.

I mean maybe a combination of both ???

"It can wait then," he let out a long sigh.

You and me both.

"What were you going to ask him?" Hanji asked.

OUR QUEEN IS ASKING THE IMPORTANT QUESTIONS <3

"He seemed worried about something earlier," Farlan trailed off.

ABOUT WHAT??

"Oh," Hanji paused, "do you have any ideas?"

THANK YOU.

"I thought maybe- it was something about the Duchess but," he paused laughing a bit. "If he's sleeping there's no need to worry."

me ????????

was he worried because-

I'm just too special???

YOU WISH

I DON'T WISH I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES

UH-HUH

PLEASE DON'T SASS ME BRAIN VOICE <3

"You're not going to tell me are you," Hanji grumbled.

Please tell her (:

Who's this Farlan guy anyway?

He seems-

"Well-"

WELL??

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"Shhh Levi I'm trying to eavesdrop," I murmured, slapping a hand over his mouth.

WAIT WHAT

LEVI????

YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE SLEEPING THOUGH

"Pretending to be my fiance, accusing me of treason, and now attempting to suffocate me?" Levi scoffed, pushing my hand off of his face.

NO-

"That obviously wasn't my intention," I grumbled quietly to myself.

"What was that?" He raised an eyebrow.

It's infuriating how nice his eyebrows are.

"I'm sorry," I said reluctantly, pushing myself away from the irritated male.

"Did you hear something?" Farlan asked, the sound of horse hooves stopping abruptly quickly following.

YOU HEARD NOTHING CONTINUE YOUR CONVERSATION.

"Hear what?" Hanji asked, her voice laced with concern.

"Nothing I just thought-" Farlan paused, "I'm probably just hearing things."

Of course! That's what it is! Continue what you were saying!

Hanji hummed in agreement- I let out a long sigh, continuing to stare at the heavy curtains.

woe is me :////

"Did I interrupt your eavesdropping?" Levi scoffed, flicking the curtains open a crack.

Yes :////

APOLOGIZE

IT WAS ABOUT TO GET GOOD

"Yeah :/ what are you going to do about it?" I grumbled my eyes slowly adjusting to the light.

This 'Farlan' dude was about to share his opinion on me and now I'll never know

A TRAVESTY

)):::

"Ignore the fact that you tried to suffocate me," Levi teased, pulling the curtains back shut once more.

This is ominous-

Levi is ominous

That's because he's a vampire

"What a boring answer," I groaned glancing away. "Some guy named Farlan was looking for you while you were sleeping."

WHO IS HE ???

"Great," Levi muttered dryly.

WOw.

"What I'm about to say might surprise you because I'm pretty sure no one has ever said this to you but-" I paused gathering my courage. "Has anyone ever told you that you're hard to talk to?"

"My wife thinks highly of me," Levi rolled his eyes, brushing it off.

IM NOT JOKING THOUGH YOU KEEP ON ENDING CONVERSATIONS BEFORE THEY'VE EVEN STARTED

"Shouldn't you talk to him? It sounded pretty important," I pressed.

I mean he was all like 'where's the duke!!! im worried about the duke!!! i can smell colors !!!

"What do you know about the north?" Levi completely ignored me, changing the conversation.

eye-

"If you thought that was a good response to anything I just said you're incredibly misguided," I frowned.

WHAT ABOUT WHAT I WAS SAYING MADE YOU THINK OF THE NORTH????

"I'm changing the subject."

"I see that. You changed the subject to something boring though."

"Boring?" Levi trailed off the question lingering in the air.

'liNgEring IN TheeE AirR' WHAT ARE YOU Y/N

I AM TAPPING INTO MY POETIC SIDE

PLEASE STOP ITS SCARY

"Have you ever had friends??????"

"What's that?" Levi said completely deadpan.

"I'M CONCERNED FOR YOU!"

"Chill out, of course, I've had friends before. You're an idiot."

SOMEHOW I DON'T BELIEVE YOU???

"Then- how did you end up like this????" I frowned.

HOW DID YOU END UP LIKE AN OLD MAN???

"Unlike you Y/N-" Levi was cut off as the carriage came to an abrupt stop.

What's going on?

"Wha-"

"Stay quiet-" Levi snapped covering my mouth with his hand.

Who's suffocating who now?

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tomorrow do be my birthday tho 

publishing my hanji smau on sunday! luv u guys <3

- ai