"Is something happening?" I asked, coming into the library with a pile of books I had been reading.

it seemed like something was going on in the main hall-

but honestly if it has anything to do with eren i would rather not bother with it

i want to stop thinking about him for a second

"Actually hold on I don't want to hear it if it's about Eren-" I dropped my things on a table next to Levi.

trashy romance novels should be enjoyed with an empty mind

"All right then," Levi moved over on the plush couch he was sitting on, making room for me.

ARE YOU GOING TO CONTINUE THAT ?

"So?"

"You said you didn't want to hear it if it was about Eren," he hummed, flipping to the next page in his book.

....

MY PLAN HAS BACKFIRED

IN ASKING HIM NOT TO SAY I HAVE BECOME INCREDIBLY CURIOUS

"Make up something to say so I can pretend for a second."

"Hanji is setting up a fighting ring in the main hall."

...

"You're not even trying."

"You're right, I'm not," he looked at me over the book, smiling slightly.

YOU SUCK

"Try again," I sat next to him, pulling a blanket over the both of us, "I'll pretend that you haven't said anything."

"Isabel and Farlan are making preparations for a celebration tonight," Levi sighed, giving in.

you know .

it's still a bad lie because i know farlan already has too much on his plate to add something new

but at least he tried

"I don't know whether to be reassured by the fact that you suck at lying or worried," I muttered, leaning into his side.

"I'm good at lying-" Levi protested.

I MEAN ??

"You're an awful liar-"

"I lied about our relationship for several months."

"THAT DOESN'T COUNT-" I glanced up at him, "and besides we didn't even talk to anyone about it for most of that time- if anything I was the only one who actually had to actively lie about anything."

I SHOULD BE COMPENSATED

"I've lied about it several times to the King, you just weren't there," he rolled his eyes at me.

OK IM SORRY BUT

THE KING FORGETS ABOUT HIS OWN CHILDREN

I FEEL LIKE HE ISN'T THE HARDEST PERSON TO FOOL

"It shouldn't have even been hard," I grumbled, "at that point you already liked me, you weren't really lying."

"Maybe I was lying about that too."

sir .

"I am not above divorcing you over petty arguments."

I AM DOWN WITH DIVORCE

"When did you first figure out you liked me anyway?" I set down my book.

THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT

IF IT'S SOMETHING STUPID IT WILL IMPACT OUR RELATIONSHIP

levi's predictable he's going to be like 'oh my sweet y/n there wasn't a specific moment it just happened *insert obligatory cursing*'

"There wasn't a speci-"

PREDICTABLE

"Oh come on- you didn't have a single moment where you looked at me and realized that the feelings you had for me weren't just friendship?"

it's ok if you didn't feel friendship for me before i will also accept idolization and overwhelming admiration <3

"You first," Levi muttered, turning his head away from mine.

he's blushing <3

that will not stop me from teasing him

<3

"That's not how this works but because I love you-" I hummed, pretending to think about it for a moment, "I guess there wasn't really a specific moment, it just happened."

"Fuck you- that's unsatisfying."

"Your turn!"

"I'm still thinking- you go," he frowned, lightly flicking my forehead.

as long as you're seriously thinking and won't just wait for me to say something and refuse to say anything yourself

"Maybe when we first met-"

that's a lie

"Liar, you were terrified."

"Ok- calm down I was just kidding."

actually when did i realize?

or rather

when did everything start

"I knew I liked you when you took me out on our festival date."

so i guess im lucky-

i mean you confessed to me that evening so it happened pretty quickly

but i definitely had feelings for you before that

"This is so embarrassing," I groaned, hiding my head in my hands, "maybe it was that night on the balcony? I probably didn't feel anything for you at that point but I think that's when I realized that maybe I could like you."

before then you were just some dude

that isn't entirely true but

close enough

"Well? Say something- it's embarrassing if you're just quiet about it," I grumbled, refusing to make eye contact with Levi.

"You're shit at answering your own questions-"

I MEAN I ONLY WANTED TO HEAR YOUR ANSWER

AND BESIDES :/

MY ANSWER WAS GOOD- YOU'RE THE PROBLEM

"Now you're the liar-"

I OPENED UP TO YOU

BE NICE

I HATE YOU

"It's the tru-"

"SHUT UP YOU LIKED IT I KNOW YOU DID-"

it's just the kind of compliment you would like .

"I knew before you," Levi cut me off, "don't look at me like that I'm answering your question."

AFTER A LOT OF STALLING

"I'm not looking at you like anything- this is my normal expression," I grinned at him, poking him gently in the side. "Go back to lording your feelings over me-"

"You're ridiculous-" he paused, "I knew I liked you on the carriage ride up-"

BRO ??

"You're a liar-"

THERE'S NO WAY

"I'm a liar."

"If you decided that you liked me that early on you would have no excuse for half of the things you've done to me-"

NOT TO MENTION ???

THAT WAS LIKE TWO DAYS AFTER WE FIRST MET

TOO QUICKLY

"This is humiliating."

"I also humiliated myself, I won't judge."

i will

"You're always doing that idiot."

"You're supposed to be talking about how much you love me, not insulting me."

"I love you enough to insult you."

that means nothing but ok <3

"Just hurry up and tell me," I pouted.

"I had some idea of my feelings for you when I gifted you the desk-" Levi murmured under his breath- so quietly I barely caught it. "It wasn't anything at that point really."

the desk-

"You really did beat me-"

"I told you so."

"You've seriously got to get better at gift giving though- maybe if you had gotten me flowers or something I would've realized your intentions."

"I thought it was clear enough," he grumbled, "besides we had only just met. I wasn't sure about anything at that point."

i think you're only saying it was that moment so you can say you beat me ....

but you were the one who had to pine after me <3

so who's the real loser

"I appreciate it," I hummed, wrapping my arms around him. "I'm glad you made space for me."

"It was the least I could do."

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happy almost new year! i went on a walk yesterday n saw a ton of deer- they're fluffy rn bc it's winter <3 i also froze half to death so you win some you lose some

hope all of u r enjoying yourselves <333

- amiii